Stutter [J.JK FF : Completed✔]

47. Heal us

"Why aren't you......stuttering?" I asked.

Was I dreaming?

His serious expression turns into the same bunny smile that always melts my heart.

"Yeah...But we still gotta talk." He says bringing back his serious expression.

"I don't want to right now." I said and looked away while sniffing. I tried to turn back into my previous position so I don't have to see his face because it hurts every damn time. 

But I couldn't, I realised why. He had caged me between his arms and was looking me right in the eye. It say the least, it made me VERY nervous and self conscious. I tried to look away but could still feel his stare piercing through me.

I felt her hand on my chin, turning my face to see his eyes on me once again. It was like he was looking into my soul through my eyes.

"Jungkook st- mghhhh!" Before I could say anything his lips were on me.

It felt like an eternity after which I had tasted those lips again. But I couldn't give up fighting. I tried to squirm around and get him off me even though every part of my body screamed that it's the right thing. 

You are the deadliest poison out there, yet you're the most effective cure. You and me both are lost, trying to find our way back. We don't know where to go...I just wanna get lost with you. I don't want us to fall apart because for me, we fit together right. For me, we fit together like two pieces of a broken heart.

I just want you to tell me everyday that I'm everything you'll ever need. I want us back. I want you and me together and the whole world to know that my heart belongs to you and no one else.

But why? Why would you hurt me so bad? Why did you have to walk over my heart like that? Didn't you know that I could sacrifice myself for you but never be able to leave you?

It hurts, it hurts so bad to know that you saw the connection we had as a mistake, an accident.

I broke out of the trance when he moved away to let oxygen find its way into both our lungs. I didn't even notice that I had tears rolling down my cheeks this while. I looked at him, he was crying as well.

Why?

"A- Are you okay?" I asked and attempted to wipe off my tears.

"Shut up. I want you to listen. Just listen. Don't you dare speak a word. Alright?" He commanded and looked at me with a deadly serious way.

I was way too scared at this point of his expressions and actions to speak a word so I stuck with nodding.

"The day you went missing and I saw your letter, my world shattered. I had been reduced to a sad moping mess but anger ruled over my sadness. We had spent months loving each other and out of no where I see you missing and find a piece of paper saying that you don't want me? That you fell out of love? That turned my brain into mush Jae I wanted to leave at that moment and come to Gwangju because I thought that I was at least worth been told on the face that you don't love me anymore. When I came, I was imprisoned and told that you....you were all happy and planning to marry the same man you had been calling a jerk.  

The man you were calling a jerk and destroying yourself that night when we confessed our love to each other. I felt betrayed and angered. I know I shouldn't have believed it and trust me I kept on denying it but those soldiers kept on repeating it and the letter only added to the fire. I was out of my mind and I know I don't deserve you. You're too good for me. It shouldn't have been you who suffered....It should have been me. 

I should have tried killing myself because I was foolish enough to tell you to die and name our love as a mistake. I never meant any of that, I was just so angry, sad, mad and impulsive at the moment. I was like a wild horse who wasn't in control and I regret it. I regret losing our baby. I regret losing you. I regret losing our love.

I know I don't deserve this chance but please, please give it another shot with me. I promise not to let you down. I've learned my lesson. Please." He ended his words with a stream of tears down his face.

"Please...." He cried holding my hand.

It made me feel like I was tearing up seeing him tear up. I reached out and touched his face. He instantly leaned into my touch. I wiped off his tears and chuckled a little.

"I'm so proud of you...You spoke so much without stuttering." I chuckled.

I'm sick of running away from each other. He was mislead. He didn't know. Let's just let it pass by. I'm sick of it.

"Is that...Is that a yes?" He sniffed.

I nodded before pulling him close to my face and linking our lips.

It was a sweet kiss, unlike the previous one which was more of me struggling away. Love flowing through us. It is what we needed to heal us.

We pulled away after a while.

"I love you, trust me. I'd never want to hurt you. I never wished bad for you....Please don't hurt me again..." I pleaded.

"Never.....Look we forgot about your food. Ugh!" He hurried and looked at the table beside which had food in it.

He helped me up and fed me while whispering sweet nothings to me. He put me into a nap later. More like forced me into it.

~*~

I heard shuffling around me. I could faintly make out the door opening and closing. I heard footsteps approaching me.

I stirred around and opened my eyes a bit. I could see a figure above me. My vision was blurry.

I rubbed my eyes gently to get a clear view. When I opened my eyes and saw the person. My eyes widened when I realised it was Father.

"Wha- What are you doing here?" I asked.  

"Checking up on you."

"What? Why?"

"To see how you're doing of course." He said and rolled his eyes.

To see how I was doing? As in her easy worried about me-

"But it's not because I worry about you of course. Don't mislead yourself."

I knew it.

"Then why would you come?"

"To do something I should have done much earlier." He answers.

"What?"

"To finish you on my own." He says and draws his long shining sword out.

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You thought I'll let you all off that easily? Nah!

XD. LOL.

Anyway, this book isn't ending soon. I still have like six or seven chapters left. It's gonna take time don't worry.

I need somethings to fall into place to make this book end in the way I want to.

To make you all feel better, it's a happy ending with two spin off chapters hehe~

- Sarisha💕💕