Soccer and Camila Cabello

I'm Sorry Buddy

Y/N POV

When she walked out of the door my I felt my heart shatter. I got up and found a random bottle that was halfway full. I went up to my room and started drinking. I felt a lot of things in that moment. I drank so I wouldn't feel anything. I wanted to be numb, shit I wanted to forget my own name. I heard people come by my door and I pretended to be asleep. I recognized Lauren's voice when she said they were the last ones there, and how they wold lock up before leaving. Once I heard the door shut I got up to go find some whiskey, I needed my favorite drink.

For the first time I noticed how trashed my house was, I had no idea where my brother was, my girl who wasn't my girl but was my girl was somewhere with an old man, my head was killing me, and I got beat up by a little bitch. How did my life go from great to a fucking disaster. I didn't feel like doing anything for the rest of the week. I spent the whole day drinking. I knocked out at about three in the morning. I woke up the next day and repeated my routine. It went on and on until Wednesday. That's when she came to see me.

I was knocked out on my couch when I heard a knock the door. "GO AWAY" I yelled towards the door.  That's when I heard her scream my name. In that moment all the numbness that I had acquired throughout the week was instantly replaced with hurt. I knew she wasn't going to go away. So I got up and finished the last bit of whiskey I had before Camila inevitably made me throw it away. I opened the door and she jumped into my arms. "Hey buddy", I gave her a smile. "Jesus y/n you freaking reek." Once I let her go her gaze hardened towards me and she started firing away with questions. "Where the hell have you been? Why is your house still trashed? Why have you not answered your phone? Why are you wearing the same clothes from your party."  I laughed, "Well its nice to see you too buddy." She just kept glaring at me waiting on my explanation. I just told her to give me a few minutes to shower. I took a longer shower than expected, because I really did stink. When I got out of the shower and went back down to talk to Camila the house was clean. It just reminded me of how perfect she was, even when she was mad she cleaned up after me. Then I remembered she's with Matthew.

"So where have you been this week, you skipped class and soccer." She said. She was really irritating my hangover and why did she care anyways she was with the grandpa.

"Don't worry about me Cabello, where the fuck have you been, oh I know fucking your old man boyfriend." She looked shocked that I had called her out. She recovered immediately though and retaliated quickly.

"Why does it matter if I was with Matthew or not? You told me you wouldn't let Austin touch me you were so drunk on Friday and he touched me. If it wasn't for Matthew it would be much worse. YOU LIED TO ME, YOU SWORE TO ME HE WOULD NEVER TOUCH ME. I saw you after Matthew saved me you couldn't even move, you were that fucked up. The fact that you didn't ask me how I was after I almost got raped proves how self absorbed you are. And for your information me and Matthew are not together. Even if we were, NEWSFLASH GONZALEZ WE AREN'T ANYTHING EITHER."

We aren't anything

We aren't anything.

We aren't anything.

We aren't anything.

She's right, no matter how much I waned to be with her we aren't anything. She made very valid points though. I felt like a dick that my first reaction was jealousy. I wasn't myself that night though. I didn't drink enough to be as wasted as I was. I had actually never been that wasted something about the whole thing was strange. I was lost in my thoughts until Camila snapped her fingers in front of my face. I was wrong in this argument I need to apologize.

"Hello?? Are you still drunk or something?' She asked me.

"No buddy, you're right I'm being insensitive. I promised you he wouldn't touch you, and the fact that he got that close to you makes me feel like I failed you. I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you. You needed me and I wasn't there, I was fucked up and I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry Camila. I swear to god the next time I see Austin I don't care what I have to do with him, I'm going to bring him to you and make him beg for forgiveness. Then I'm gonna fuck him up I promise I will. Please forgive me babygirl, forgive me for not being there for you, forgive me for being a jealous asshole." After I finished apologizing I got down on my knees in front of her.

That's how sorry I was look one thing about
y/n Gonzalez is she never gets down on her knees. Not even for god himself at church. This was the first time that I had ever got down on my knees for someone. When I looked up at her she was crying, she knelt down with me and she pulled me back up to my feet and whispered that it was okay. I kissed her all throughout her face and kept apologizing to her.

"It's okay y/n it's okay, I'm okay. You don't have to do that for me." She made me look at her. We sat down on the couch and I held her hand and looked straight in her eyes and told her, "Camila Cabello I swear to god I'm gonna right this wrong. I'm gonna make him get on his knees and apologize to you. I swear no matter what I won't let him get away with this. Wether you like it or not I'm going to make him pay for what he almost did to you.

She just nodded her head at me and gave me that smile that I love so fucking much. I decided to change the subject for now. "So what's going on in bio?" I asked with a little chuckle. "I've been holding our projects down, telling Smith you've been sick. My godmother is furious and so is Coach, they said you better have a good excuse for being absent. I let out a little laugh and told her two words, "money talks."

She looked confused and I asked her to lunch because, one I was hungry as fuck, and two I didn't want to leave her yet. So when we stepped out to the beach I asked her, "Are we taking the jet ski to get lunch on the boardwalk, or do you wanna go somewhere in my car?" She didn't answer she just ran towards the jet ski. I laughed and followed her. " I wanna drive buddy please, please, please, can I drive?

How could I say no to that? I just laughed and handed her the keys to the jet ski. She turned it on and positioned her hands on the handlebars. She looked back at me and told me to help her. I put my hands over hers and once I did that she sped off towards the docks. She really enjoyed the jet ski, it was cute. When we got to the docks I hooked the jet ski back up and we started walking back towards the boardwalk.

We had a nice conversation over some bomb ass tacos. She asked me again how I was going to excuse my absence at school. I told her that I would show her. I suggested we walk back to the beach house instead of taking the water route. She low key pouted but agreed. On the way back I called my father and told him that I spent the past few days with my new girlfriend at the beach house and I needed an excuse for school. Camila asked me if he was mad and I just put him on speaker and he was laughing. "That's my girl. Does your girlfriend need an excuse as well?" Camila looked shocked and I just laughed and told him no she had her ways of getting out of trouble. He said he would text me the address for Dr. Ramirez's office so I could pick up my excuse for school.

We finally made it to the beach house and then we got on Dory and started the drive towards the doctor's office. When we got there the receptionist didn't look up at us until I caught her attention. "How may I help you," she said with an attitude.

"My name is y/n Gonzalez." She got up immediately and went to get the doctor. "Dr. Ramirez it's been a while." I said shaking his hand. "Y/n, always nice to see one of Juan's kids, I heard you were in a bit of a situation." He laughed with me. I told him I needed an excuse for school, he already had it in his coat's pocket. He told me that anytime I need something to not be shy. I told him I'd keep that in mind. Before we left he got my attention again. "Is this the lucky girl y/n?" I laughed and nodded my head. He asked for a picture to show his wife. Camila was going to step away but the doctor insisted her to be in the picture. I shook his hand one last time as did Camila and then we left.

We headed back to school and we were walking back to the dorms when out of nowhere I heard "GONZALEZ" Ahh there's the voice of Demi Lovato. "My office now." I laughed and turned towards Camila and kissed her on the cheek and was whispering my goodbye.

"HANDS OFF!!" Camila rolled her eyes and pushed me away while giggling.

The headmistress grabbed me by my arm and off we went towards her office.

I didn't care that I was probably going to get screamed at. I had a "legit" doctor's excuse so it was all good. Life was good again Camila wasn't with Grandpa Pussy, I had an excuse for being absent, Camila forgave me, and after I'm excused from Lovato's office I have a personal mission to find Asstin and make him pay for what he did to Camila. Oh and pay him back for beating me up while I was drunk.

I had a silly smile on my face all the way towards the office thinking about her.

Camila Cabello.