Soccer and Camila Cabello

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So you guys aren't going to like this chapter, but don't skip it. It's essential for the end of this book. And the(maybe) beginning of the next one.
Pls don't hate me. 🙃

Camila's POV

This isn't happening. How could I have been so careless. Y/n can't find out. This will ruin us.

Today is the day. My future is on the line today. Or at least what's left of it. Today I was going to perform in front of dozens of scouts.

I feel like crap. My song with Shawn was good though. It was really amazing, but Shawn was really clingy. After the worst night of my life he has been constantly on me. Everytime we practice our song he tries to make a move. It bothers me so much. He's just a reminder of the mistake I made. I honestly don't know what was going through my mind. I don't even remember what happened that night. I just woke up naked with him by my side. That day cost me everything.

Out of all of the days for this to happen why today? Why couldn't I have done this tomorrow. I thought to myself as I walked out of the restroom. I needed to get over it though. There was nothing I could do about the situation anymore. Today was the beginning of the rest of my life in two different ways.

I silently got ready for the day. When I left the room y/n, had left hers too. I saw her side profile she was so happy. She didn't notice me though. Today was the day she was going to become a part of the USWNT. Her life was about to take off and I was happy for her.

When I walked to the arts building it was buzzing with all of the singers who were performing today. Not to sound conceited but there was virtually no competition for me and Shawn. We were each other's competition, which is why we had originally teamed up in the first place. There was one person though.

Daniel Gonzalez.

He was a wildcard in this. I had never heard him sing only play instruments. He played guitar and piano better than anybody I'd ever seen, so I was nervous about his performance. It was like he had read my mind. I saw him walk past me and give me his daily glare, but this time he said something to me.

"You screwed over a Gonzalez, now tonight a Gonzalez is gonna screw you over. Break a leg Cabello." He said with that oh so familiar smirk. I turned away from him, because looking at him reminded me too much of y/n.

I walked away to me and Shawn's designated practice room. When I got there he hugged me and I actually hugged him back for once. Encouraged by my reciprocation he pulled back and started leaning in. I couldn't do that not yet. So I turned my head so he could get my cheek instead. We spent the day choosing outfits and perfecting our song.

The day went by in a blur. Before I knew it, it was our turn to go onstage. Daniel went before us and he sang an amazing love song. I didn't feel confident in myself anymore. Shawn gave me a kiss on my cheek and motioned for me to walk out, he followed right behind me.

The second I got a view of the crowd I knew she was here. I could feel her presence. I could feel her eyes on me. I didn't want to see her while I sang this song though. I just avoided looking at the crowd.

The song me and Shawn wrote was inspired by y/n, and not in a good way. I sang my heart out and I know Shawn did too. When I opened my eyes I was staring into those eyes that made my heart go crazy. I belted out the last few words of the song trying to hold back my tears. There she was. This whole time I wanted her she was gone, but the one time I didn't want her she showed up. I knew she would wait to talk to me so I might as well get it over with. I made my way towards her when Shawn's voice stopped me.

"Camila wait. Will you go to prom with me?"

I didn't even look his way, I was focused on those eyes. Those eyes pleading with me to say no. She even mothed "please don't." I was going to say no but then I saw her. She was in her uniform. She was probably happy where she was. I couldn't ruin that. So I gave her one last smile before I turned to Shawn and said yes. I even kissed him to get my point across. I had to make her leave. Even if that meant that she would hate me. When I pulled away from Shawn a minute later I heard the unmistakable roar of her car and the sound of burning rubber. I knew then that she was out of my life.

I loved her though. I couldn't let her ruin her future because of me. As soon as I was out of the public view I sat down and cried my eyes out. I rubbed my belly where our child was. "Did I do the right thing letting her go? I know if I would just tell her she would come back to me, come back to us. I have to let your momma go though. She has to live her dream. Just know she would love you." I said talking to my baby. As far as I was concerned this baby is mine. I love y/n too much to take her dream from her. I know me and the baby will be fine without her. For once I wasn't going to be selfish. I needed to let her go but I would always have a piece of her with me. I would always have a reminder of our love.

So I'm gonna ask again. Epilogue or Sequel?

Anywayyyys as always lmk what ya thought of the chapter.