Soccer and Camila Cabello

We're Done

Once again I've been an idiot in picking a girl. I honestly should have just stayed out of her life.I should have been focused on soccer. that should have been my sole focus. I've been slacking a little but not anymore. My new top priority is getting into a school. One that's far from here, far from her. Yeah maybe I should give her a chance to explain, but that won't change anything. She lied to me and still had the nerve to try and make me seem like the bad one. I'm not gonna avoid the situation this time though. I'm gonna be mature about this. I'm gonna show up to school, talk to her and if we work things out then that's great. But if we don't that's fine too. All I know is I'm not gonna be played anymore.

It's now 6 am and I'm barely coming down from my high. Just in time for practice too. I change in my room, make my shake, and drive off to school. The locker room in the morning is usually quiet but today it was full of whispers.The whole team had their phones out looking at something that was out of my view. The whispers that stopped when I got there. Everyone was giving me looks of sympathy. I ignored them and focused on doing what I had to.

Today's practice went by so fast and I wasn't even tired.

Before we left Cameron stopped me. "Hey y/n I know you're pissed Camila's cheating on you but don't hurt Shawn. Camila came onto him last night while she was drunk. That picture of the kiss shows the bottle.

What the actual fuck. So she still cheated on me even after I left. That's when it clicked the boys must have been looking at the picture of Camila with Shawn. I didn't wanna look stupid in front of the team so i just played it off.

"Yeah man no worries, I'm not worried about the situation anymore, clearly she doesn't love me.

We had an hour and thirty minutes before school started so I headed towards my room to shower so I could have that talk with Camila. Now it had to be a break up for sure. She isn't gonna have me looking stupid. When I opened the door to my room the sight that greeted me made me almost change my mind.

There she was. The love of my life, on my bed, wearing my team hoodie. She's so fucking beautiful. I just played with her hair for a few minutes because deep down I knew that this would be my last chance. I can't believe she cheated on me. I finally got the strength to get up and walk away towards the shower. I started singing in there. I usually only do that when I'm bummed or real happy. Today unfortunately was the former.

"No quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase, yeah yeah yeahNo quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase"

A soft knock on the door interrupted my little singing session.

"Baby." When I heard that voice my heart broke a little more. That's when the first wave of tears started. I already knew what was gonna come next and I didn't want it to happen just yet. I didn't say anything but she still walked in. I saw her through the shower door coming my way and I let the water soak my face so my tears would remain hidden. I had my eyes closed until I felt her wrap her hands around my waist.

"Baby I swear it was nothing. He was just teaching me." She still had the nerve to fucking lie to  me. I bet she doesn't even know someone took a picture of her and Shawn. I grabbed both of her hands and pushed them off me gently. She still didn't give up and turned me to face her. When she saw my eyes she started crying too. I never sang to her but it would have to do for now because I couldn't form any of my own words.

"Hoy te odio en el secreto, ante todo lo confieso
Si pudiera, te pidiera que devuelvas to' los besos que te di
La palabra y todo el tiempo que perdi
Me arrepiento una y mil veces de haber confiao' en ti Quisiera que te sientas como yo me siento
Quisiera ser como tu, sin sentimiento
Quisiera sacarte de mi pensamiento
Quisiera cambiarle el final al cuento"