Soccer and Camila Cabello

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Today's the day. The day that will make or break my future.

Spring Break is done. This past week with my girls was awesome and it was kinda like my last time to party. I made sure I stayed sober last night, because I had to be at my best for today. I needed this for me. I'm at a point in my life where I want to be completely selfish. I don't want to have to answer to nobody or be attached to anyone. I want to worry about my passion and my money. I'm seventeen going on eighteen, I don't need to be worried about anyone but myself. I just want to be free. Today is my chance. Today is the start of the rest of my life.

Alright I've been in the shower for way too long. It's time to go on about my day. Right on time too because Lauren knocked just as I finished wrapping my body up with a towel. When I walked out of the shower she gave me a pat on the back and wished me luck. Once she went into the restroom I turned my attention towards my nightstand. The uniform that the national team had sent me. It didn't have a number yet and I knew I wasn't going to have my usual number because that belonged to Carli Lloyd.

HOLY SHIT. I'm gonna meet Carli Lloyd. I'm gonna meet Alex Morgan, Megan Rapinoe, Tobin Heath, ect. This is unreal. I thought to myself while getting dressed. When it was time to pack my stuff I put the uniform to the side so it could be at the top.

I reached for a pair of cleats that would match, when a folded up piece of paper caught my attention. It was inside the cleats Camila had given me. Those have been untouched since I found out about her betrayal. Regardless I was curious about the paper so I unfolded it.

Hey baby, I know it's a little corny to be leaving notes for you in your stuff, but I just wanted to remind you of how much I love you. You're my dream come true and I really appreciate everything you do. I know these past two weeks without being able to play soccer have been killing you. And I know that I've been clingy and motherly, but I want to make sure you get better. I know you're mad at me right now for being overprotective but I'm doing it for your own good. Today you snapped at me for coddling you and we're upset with each other. I'm going to spend the night without you, and I'm already dreading it. I miss your presence so much and it's barely been a few hours. So now I'm laying in your dorm, wearing your letterman that I stole because it smells like you, and writing you this little note. Whenever you open this it means that you've been cleared to play and you've got your sanity back. I know that you love soccer a lot and I know it's irritating to be injured and not be able to do anything. But I also know that you're going to be okay baby. I know one day you're going to be a pro soccer player and live your dreams. Just know that I'll follow you wherever you go. Anyways just wanted to give you a little reminder about how much I love you. Also to wish you luck the next time you use these shoes.    
You're my whole world. I love you so much Y/n Gonzalez.

- Kisses, the love of your life, future wife, babymama, the girl who owns your heart,

Camila Cabello

P.S check the other shoe before you put it on. Just a little something I want you to have. ;)

Welp. Now I know where my letterman is. And there goes my good mood. I don't get it though. This was a few days before she cheated on me. This shit isn't adding up. I got other stuff to focus on though. I picked up the other cleat and a picture slipped out of it. It was a picture of her in her underwear and her lip print

Love you daddy.

I shook all the dirty thoughts out of my head and put the pair of cleats in my bag. Maybe they would bring me luck. I grabbed the picture and the note and shoved them in my drawer as well. Once I finished packing my bag I made my smoothie and started to head to class. I was hoping I'd see Camila for some reason but it didn't happen. That's when I remembered tonight was the spring showcase. I was going because Daniel was gonna be in it he was gonna be second to last. With Camila and Shawn closing the show.