P L A Y G R O U N D ❁ lrh

Day 16

Tuesday, I lose a friend and my ride. #thestruggle.

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I wake up early today and sluggishly get ready for the dreadful thing we call school. I go into the bathroom doing all my daily stuff and makeup.

   Next I go into my closet and grab my black "black is not a sad color" shirt, skinny jeans, and my all black converse. I look and see it's 6:50 and my ride got here at 7:00 so I grab my phone and backpack, and proceed outside.

   When I walk out I'm surprised to see Luke's car in my driveway. I walk over to his car and tap on the window. Luke rolls the window down and says "Hey best friend."

   I look at him weirdly then ask "What are you doing here? And why earlier than normal?" He laughs and responds "Well I come every morning now so yeah and I'm here early so that I can spend more time with you."

   I roll my eyes and lean on the in the window, so my heads in his car. He laughs and I ask "What?" He shakes his head and says "Nothing." We spend about 8 minutes doing nothing.

All of a sudden I hear a honk and jump, making my head hit the top of Luke's car. I groan and remove my head from the car and turn my head to see Kat in her car.

   Then I watch as she gets out with an angry look on her face. I gulp as she was now standing directly in front of me. Her jaw was clenched as she says "You bitch, have you been hanging out with HIM this whole time?!?"

    I nod quietly, not believing she was this angry about a boy. "UGH YOU KNOW I LIKED HIM! He would never even go for a girl like you! Why do you even try?"

   I look down as Kat yells at me. She yells again screaming "SAY SOMETHING!" I look up through my eyelashes and say quietly "I'm sorry I'll stop talking to him, just don't be mad at me, we're just friends anyways."

   Kat softens a bit, but then says angrily "I don't even care. Just know you don't have a ride to school anymore and you have one less friend now."

Kat walks away and gets in her car as I stand there, tears falling down my face for more than one reason. I couldn't hold myself up any longer I fall as soon as Kat's car had sped off.

   Luke gets out of his car quickly and tries to hug me, but I push him away. I pull my knees to my chest an cry into my knees. Sobbing as quietly as I could.

  Not only did I lose a good friend, but I also lost any confidence I had in myself. I feel arms around my body and feel I am no longer on the ground. I look up quickly and say "No! Put me down! I'm to fat!!"

  I was crying and screaming trying to get out of Luke's grip, but he continues to walk with me in his arms. He puts me into the passenger side of his car, then goes to the drivers seat and gets in.

   I cower as far away from him as I can, but he just puts his hands on the steering wheel and drives the opposite direction of the school and I ask "Where a-are we g-going?" Still hiccuping from my crying.

He doesn't answer, we park and I see the playground. I stay in the car as Luke gets out and walks around to my side to get me out. He picks me up except this time my legs are wrapped around his torso and my arms are wrapped around his neck. My head was also buried in his neck so I couldn't see anything and his hands were hugging my waist, supporting me and also to comfort me.

   I feel Luke sit down and I pull my head out of the crook of his neck, which was now wet from my tears and I see we are sitting on a swing and my legs are still wrapped around his torso, so I was sitting on his lap.