HIS JOURNEY

CH15: Enlightment

!!! WARNING: This chapter contains rated scene that will not be suitable for children 15 below.
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GEENINA's POV

"This happened when..."

FLASHBACK (Timeline October 2016)

Shandy oppa went home drunk, I don't know what's gotten into him. Is he stressed or something? I prepared warm towel to clean his arms filled with alcohol scent. His shirt was all messed up and filled with saliva which I don't know where it came from. I carefully damp the towel and heard him groan for a second but settled in.

"Why did you drink too much, oppa?" I sighed. I saw him shed a tear and murmur things I can't possibly understand, it's in his mother language.

Before I stop fixing his clothes, he sat and gave me a back hug. Sending chills over my spine, I couldn't stop myself from feeling this uneasiness underneath me. "Hey, Shandy, get rest." I successfully said.

He didn't respond in words, but in action, he gently place kisses on my neck which gave my heart the authority to beat on it's semi maximum level. If that's even possible. It weakens me, it made my knees wobbling. I tried holding it together, telling myself things that I shouldn't do. But I failed.

I gave in and kissed him on his lips, wrapping my arms around his neck while we indulge ourselves on our own world. He settled me on the bed, looked at me full of emotions. Lust, love, and beauty that holds everything inside us. He took off my shirt and starts kissing my neck down to my chest. I couldn't help but to moan on the sensation he was giving me, I held his shoulder as he devoured himself on the tips which gave me a little high.

Looking at him as he inserted himself inside me swept all the pain lingering and exchanged it with pure pleasure. He whispered I love you's endlessly to my ears everytime he hears me moan. The heated session went to an end when we both gasps for air as we released. I gulped, feeling tired all of a sudden.

"I love you." he whispered before he snuggled himself behind me and went to sleep. I chuckled and internally slapped myself for doing such thing at our age. I know it's not yet the right age but come what may.

The morning comes and the alarm was not yet making its entrance. I gently placed light kisses on his forehead and lips before getting out of his room. I'd rather not say what happened.

End of Flashback

"So, something really happened between us? I wasn't hallucinating?" he asked, confusion was written on his face. I nodded, "I decided not to tell because you didn't asked. I found out I was having Autumn, weeks after my departure from your country. It was hard at first, but my family wholeheartedly welcomed her."

I heard him sigh, "Veronica knew about this?" I shook my head to say no. "So none of us know?" I gulped and nodded my head.

"I'm sorry for not telling you." I inhaled deeply for his response but I got nothing in return. He's frustrated by how he messed up his perfect hair. Keeping his face in between his palms, sobbing a little. I pat his back and asked for forgiveness.

"Look, did you introduced me to her?" He looked at me, hoping for the better. "Not yet." I mumbled.

"You just made it a secret and you neglected me as a father to my kid. What did I do to get all this shits?"

"I'm sorry, Shandy. I'm sorry."

"Sorry? Just a sorry? I want my kid to know me. Do you expect me to accept that? Huh, Geenina?!" he exclaimed. I was taken aback. He never got angry with me, he was always caring and loyal. It was all my fault.

"And what? My daughter. My kid! My kid is in coma! What if it's her last day? Huh? Do you know how painful it is for me to handle that?!"

I shed some tears as he shouts at me, but I deserve this kind of treatment. I did him wrong. He calms himself and hug me afterwards, that made my cry so hard. I don't deserve him, I don't deserve this man.

"Promise me, the moment Autumn wakes up, introduce me to her." he said as he looked at me, his eyes didn't change, it is still longing, still the old pair of eyes I used to look at.

"I promise."