Thoughts of the Day

2-5-19 9:50PM

It's weird how things happen. Even if we disagree with how they happen. I can't wait until 8 days when I get that kitty and I don't feel as bad because I won't be alone all the time. I'm pretty sure she doesn't feel that way, and I don't blame her. But again, I could be wrong. I don't know why I put that name down, and I don't know what I'm doing currently in life. I do know that I tend to mess things up and I am willing to accept whatever comes from this. That's all I'm really saying right now.

Edit: I lied about that. I'm saying more. I want things between us to be like they were before. I just know I haven't really been texting first because I feel like I'm bothering you. Not in a way that's annoying or anything like that. You never really text me first anymore, you haven't in a while. I'm probably being really petty right now, but that is okay lol. I just eventually stop talking to those people that I don't feel the same energy from. Like if I text you often, it doesn't matter if I text first or not and I don't feel the same energy (Which sounds really dumb typing it) then I just eventually stop texting first. I know you have a lot going on right now, you're busy, and you have a lot on your mind, but our conversations seem to slowly be a bit dull. I don't like it. I want things to be different. I believe things can be different, it just takes time (Which time was never on our side). I still want to talk to you. I still want to be involved in your life. It's just hard whenever I feel like you don't want anything to do with me. I think this is all now, I'm sorry.