Thoughts of the Day

2-9-19 12:06AM

Deep down I hope one day, you see what I see. That is what I want. I want you to see what I feel about you. I want you to see how amazing you are. I want you to see the beautiful young woman you're growing up to be. I don't think of you any different. Even when you're sad, stressed, mad, and happy. I look at you all the same way. I apologize if this is all over the place, I am kind of tired right now lol. Today has been a good and tiring day for me. I woke up smiling and felt appreciated and wanted. Even though I've told you many times of what I'm typing, I just like expressing how I feel. I also think it's funny how people think they can just come and try to ruin something that is good. Even though I've told you quite a bit expecting a certain reaction, you never give it. Just like when I told you about him, I expected you to get scared or be nervous most of the time, but you just smiled and said that it doesn't matter and it doesn't change how you view me. I still remember that day. Remembering that day comforts me because I know if that doesn't make you nervous or scare you the slightest bit then I shouldn't have to worry about telling you about anything. I still can't say some things out loud that you tell me, and I wish I could say them, but I'm glad that you aren't affected by it badly. I don't think I ever told you why it's hard for me to say some words. I just know that I am trying.