Depression is real with this 5-day break from school. 4 out of 5 days and I just want to crawl into a ball and never leave. Then again, I want, no I need to socialize in some way. I can't leave the apartment because my grandma always has the keys and keycard so I can't leave and she claims she feels better when she has them but she never had a problem with it before. She only says that because her husband is controlling more of her life. She doesn't realize it, and she never will. In the long run, it has a negative effect on me. Imagine this summer when we have 2 months of no school, and all of my friends are leaving for college so they'll be even busier. I'll have only 2 other people to talk to and one of them seems to be avoiding me lately. I kept inviting him over for the past 2 weekends since he is the only friend that can come over and he keeps saying no. So I've been having no social interactions and I feel like I've been going crazy. At the same time, I want to talk to a few people, but they're busy themselves. Even then I haven't really been talking to anyone lately. I try, but they usually don't respond. I'll try not to take it personally, but I guess this is for the better. Everything does have a funny way of working out. Which in this case it seems like isolating me until I lose all control and go crazy, I've been trying to avoid that because last time it happened, it did not end well.
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