Kaylynn {COMPLETED}

Chapter 6

¨Gold chain benath your shirt. The shirt that you let me wear home. Gold's fake and real love hurts. But nothing hurts when I'm alone, when you're with me and we're alone."

Kissing progressed and I am laid across the couch.  He lifts up my shirt and begins kissing and licking my stomach. As he gets lower and lower I get butterflies. His lips are so soft. I know this is wrong  but it feels right.

Jingle Yasmine's keys go.  We sit up so fast and I pull my shirt down. "Leave Kaylynn alone she isn't here for you" Yasmine says entering. We laugh and I finish making the paseílloes and I go back downstairs. Aiden went upstairs to play with Mason but I wasn't about to stay up there with Jasons friends that's just weird. As I lay in bed my mind begins to wander.  Does he really like me for me or just my body?  No it can't be just for my body he tells me he loves me. But if he does why didn't he respect my wishes? Why did he rape? I  him a week prior that I WASN'T READY.  Is he using me? He can't be, I love him and loves me. But every time I am with him he just wants to touch me. He raped me. I can't blame him its my fault I provoked him.

                                                                             (A week Prior)

Yasmine was at work and so was my mom. Aiden and Mason were playing video games an Jason and I were making out in his bed. He tries to unbutton my pants, I giggle and move his hand "stop". He continues. "Can you not" I push him away and sit up.  "Come on", he says and grabs my thigh "it's not that big of a deal". "Boy" I turn my head, "it's a very big deal, like I know we've been talking for a few months but I don't feel like i'm ready. And if my mom find out, she will kill me. Jason sighs and grabs both of my hands. "How long do you think I can stay with someone I can't get intimate with, sex comes in a relationship too".

My mind swirls. What the fuck. So if we don't fuck he's gonna leave me?! I sit there on the bed quiet thinking. I twiddle my fingers. I really like him... "I don't know what to do" I sigh, "to do with your kiss on my neck. I don't know what feels true, but this feels right so stay and sit". I don't know if I really wanted to do this or I was scared he wouldn't want to talk to me anymore but I got on top of him and we started kissing... one thing lead to another, and I gave him head.

Ugh! As I sit here in bed I think how stupid can I be. He's def using me and I'm letting him. I text him and say "i'm not doing this anymore". 10 minutes later I'm chilling watching Black Ink Crew and here comes this nigga pounding on the door. I groan in aggravation, "GO AWAY"! He continues to pound "let me in". " "I'm good love enjoy" I say rolling my eyes. "Kaylynn!" he pounds.  "KAYLYNN!" he pounds harder. "KAY-LYNN"!! I open the door "WHAT"! "The fuck are you talking about?" he holds his phone up to my face showing me the text.  "You're using me", I look into his eyes, "you are manipulative, I don't want to but I have to leave you alone".  He laughs "we aren't stopping anything, you're just over reacting". I cross my arms. "I'm not over reacting, this is toxic". "Come here" he says grabbing my arm. I move back. "Don't touch me". He pulls me closer by my hips. "Oh my gosh" I huff can you not". He grabs my neck and we begin to kiss. He picks me up and we go into my room.

I wake up to the sun shining on my face and birds chirping. I slowly sit up. My body hurts. I look to my right. What the fuck?! Jason! He's sleeping and we are naked. I look at my phone. 10 missed calls from Keisha.