Undercover

PART 19

#Undercover

Pt. 19

3 Months Later

“How’s Saddiq holding up?” Ginelle asks breaking the silence during our car ride. “He’s ok. I visit him every Sunday. He’s holding up” I say shyly. I miss my man like crazy. I miss holding him….kissing him….his touch….his love. Interrupting my thoughts, Nelle says “I’m glad he’s holding up well. I know you miss the hell out of him. I barely hear from you. All you do is work. On top of that, you’re taking summer classes” Nelle says. “Yeah, I’m keeping busy purposely. If I don’t, I’ll fall apart. I don’t need to do that right now. I’ve got goals I need to meet. I’ve gotta keep pushing” I say ending the conversation.

“You made it!” Trevin yells from the front porch of some house we’ve arrived at. “What the hell is going on? Whose place is this?” I ask as we get out of the car. “Oh, this is Trevin’s parent’s place. Isn’t it beautiful! They’ve invited us over for a part. Kehlani should be here soon. This will be fun. You need some fun. Wouldn’t you agree?” Nelle says as we follow the walkway up to the porch. I just smile because on the inside I feel empty….lost…

The party goes on for some time and all I can think about is going home and cuddling up on the couch. Just after Saddiq had been in jail for a month, his mother came to me and helped me get us an apartment. I explained to her that I didn’t have much and I would repay her. She declined being repaid. She only wants me to continue working, going to school, and supporting her son. That seemed simple enough. “Where’s the restroom?” I ask Nelle. She points me to where I need to go. After washing up, I come out into the hallway where there are lots of pictures of Trevin when he was a child. Looks like he’s an only child. “I was a cute kid, huh?” Trevin says walking up to me. “Yeah, you were. You’re not too bad looking now” I say jokingly. “Thanks. So, how are you holding up? I ask Nelle but she doesn’t say much. I assume that’s because she wants to keep what you tell her private. I can respect that. Follow me, I’ve got more pictures” Trevin says. I follow him into what seems to be a den area. There’s pictures of him, Saddiq, and a few other guys in the fraternity. Looks like they all grew up together. “I’m doing good. These pictures are so nice. Look at y’all. So cute, sweet, and innocent” I say laughing softly. “There you go. A smile, ladies and gentleman!” Trevin jokes. I give him a shy smile. Just as I walk out of the room, Trevin grabs my hand and says “Hey, I’m here for you if you need. I can only imagine how hard this is for you.” Then BAM! Trevin kisses me, sticking his tongue into my mouth. “The fuck!” I say loudly but I don’t think anyone heard me over the music. “I don’t know what you think this is but no! This isn’t the first time that you’ve pulled a stunt like this. I overlooked it last time. Don’t you EVER touch me again!” I say snatching away and heading for the front door.