Just A Little Bit Of Your Heart ~ Randy

19: Silenced

Shoutout to MarilouTherien for guessing right... well, 99% x😂

Andy's P.O.V

Flashback

I woke up a few hours before Rye had, still incredibly upset by what he'd said yesterday. I couldn't shake it; he was right. Jack did have a reason for leaving me. Rye had a reason for shouting at me. I'm pathetic. I ran to the bathroom as a wave of nausea passed over me. I hadn't said anything but this was the 4th time I'd been sick this week. I didn't think anything of it. After all, it was early March and still cold. (I know they live in Spain, but just pretend. Also pretend they celebrated their birthdays already and it wasn't in the chapters.) I assumed I had a fever, but my temperature was normal.

I never expected to be pregnant, of all things.

Flashback over

Rye's P.O.V

I stared dumbfounded at the pregnancy test beside the bin. My mind told me to leave it, but I felt the urge to pick it up anyway. My heart stopped when I saw two clear lines. How could Andy be pregnant? I knew he was feminine in certain senses, but not in a way that meant he could carry children. We'd used a condom almost every time, too. It must have split without us realising.

I sat down on the edge of the bath tub, still baffled by what I held in my hand. Too many emotions raced through my head, a mix of confusion yet joy. We'd be having our first child together, me and Andy. Not adopted like we expected.

"Baby?!"

I walked out of the room, searching for my husband. I couldn't wait to hug and kiss him all over. Still, I got no response. I closed the door to our bedroom, only just noticing a piece of paper lying on the floor under Andy's side of the bed. I picked it up with shaky hands, unfolding it carefully.

Rye,
If you're reading this, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the times I got in the way and I'm sorry I was such a pathetic husband. You were right. I'm sorry for leaving you but I just had to go. Please don't try and find me. I love you.

It stopped there. I was utterly broken. My husband had left me, and whilst carrying our child. What I'd said was so wrong. I know that. I just wish he knew I did, too. I was so stupid.

I fell to the floor, letting out everything I felt. Mikey ran in, confused and half-asleep.

"Rye?"

"He's gone," I sobbed angrily.

Mikey sat me down on the bed, holding me in his arms.

"I'm sorry, Rye."

"I have to find him, Mike. I know what I said was so wrong, but I have to. I have no choice. He can't be alone."

"What do you mean?"

"He's fucking pregnant, Mikey. He's carrying our child!"

"H-he's pregnant?" Mikey squeaked.

I nodded, hearing my best friend curse.

"Do you have any clue as to where he's gone?"

"No. I mean, he might've gone back to England, but he knows that's the first place I'll check. He said he didn't want me to find him. But I don't know if he even has any clue I'd find out about him being pregnant, and I have to find him. My baby's out there alone," I sobbed.

"We'll find him, I promise."

Andy's P.O.V

I closed my eyes, resting my hand on my belly. To think my baby wouldn't see his other father with us was heartbreaking. But I had no place with Rye. He didn't need me, even if I needed him. I doubt he'd even care I was gone. I don't think he'd have any idea I was carrying our baby, either.

I looked around where I was, turning my phone on. I clicked the first contact, slightly wishing they wouldn't answer.

"Andy?"

"Mummy," I gasped. I broke down into a sob instantly.

"Oh, my baby. What is it, Andy?"

"I can't stay there anymore. I don't deserve Rye's love. I don't deserve being his partner forever. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve anything. It's no wonder Jack left me," I choked. "Mum, I need you. I need to come back."

"Of course, my love. I'll send a plane-"

"No, don't. Rye will find out I'm coming. I told him not to come and find me. I'll make my own way home."

"Are you sure, Andy?"

I nodded, then remembered she couldn't see me. "Yeah. I'm sure. I'll see you soon, Mummy." I hung the phone up, sighing. I went into a public bathroom and washed my face, heading for the airport. Right now, I didn't care that people might recognise me; I just had to get away.

Later

Rye's P.O.V

"Come on, Rye. Me and Mikey are going to a party. You might as well come, to get your mind off of-"

"Andy?" I interrupted. "Yeah, no thanks. You guys go. I'll be fine."

Brook sighed, taking a seat beside me. "It's okay to not to be okay, Rye. I know you love Andy, but sitting here all mopey isn't going to help anything. Come with us, just for tonight."

"Did Mikey tell you about Andy?"

My older brother shook his head. "What about him?"

I let out a shaky sigh, dropping my head in my hands. "He's able to get pregnant. And he's carrying our child, Brook."

"What the fuck?"

"He can get pregnant. And he got pregnant."

"Shit. I'm sorry, bro."

"It's okay, Brook. I guess I'll come with you guys," I mumbled, standing up.

"You know, you don't have to. I won't force you," my brother said reassuringly. A massive part of me screamed no, you'll do something stupid. But there was a small, more persistent part that said I could just come back if I really didn't want to stay anymore.

"No, I'll come. Just give me a minute to get ready, okay?"

"Yeah, okay."

Brook left, and I got ready. I spotted Andy's necklace, which he'd left, and picked it up.

I smiled, kissing the amethyst on it. I'd bought it for him a little while ago, after finding out what his birthstone was. (A/N Andy's stone is an amethyst, seeing as he was born in February) I slipped it around my neck, placing it above my heart. A reminder he wasn't gone. A reminder I hadn't completely lost the boy I loved with everything I had and more.

"I love you, my beautiful angel. I'll find you, I promise. And I'm so fucking sorry for hurting you like this," I whispered into nothing, sighing. Brook's shout brought me back to reality and I realised I'd agreed to go to the party. Lord knows why.