Just A Little Bit Of Your Heart ~ Randy

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Warning: smut.

Rye's P.O.V

Alone. Nobody could help me. See me. Why?!

Fingers growing tighter around my neck. I deserved this. I didn't need to burden anyone anymore. Not when I'd inflicted this much damage to everyone.

Head spinning, making my head thud nauseatingly. I couldn't even scream, cry, nothing.

"Hey, hey," the softest, most angelic voice whispered to me. It was so faint, I was certain I was dreaming it. Surely, I can't be in heaven yet. Or hell, rather.

Two small hands placed over mine. And the soft voice again. "Rye. R-Rye, listen to me, darling. L-listen," they murmured. Tone light as a feather, but weighed down by pain and hurt. The pain I'd caused, no doubt.

Cool fingers wrapping around mine, pulling them away from my throat so I couldn't end it all. Why would they do that? Couldn't they see I was worthless?

"S-stop," I cried hoarsely, throat burning intensely. I grimaced at the searing hot-white pain.

"Rye..."

I opened my eyes tentatively; I didn't have anyone looking over me. Nobody cared for me like this. Met with soft blue eyes, tears brimming. Of course, they were. I was a disgrace. Soft pink lips playing into a small smile, hands wrapped around mine as they rested in my lap. A facade; a plot to make me see the extent of how truly worthless I was.

"How long have you been like this...?" He asked softly, biting his lip.

"Since you left," I croaked, starting to find my voice again. Why was he helping me? He hated me more than anything; he'd made that so clear. And who could blame him?

"Two hours? Oh, baby... you're okay, darling," he muttered, pulling me into him and rocking me against his chest. I let the tears cascade again as the sweet smell of the perfume filled my nose, opened up the emotional floodgate. Lips pressed to my forehead as I closed my eyes to the sweet nothings whispered into my ear.

"W-why are y-you doing this?" I frowned. "You hate me."

"I don't hate you, Rye. I never meant it. Just, I was so hurt, and it's going to take a lot to come back from that. I can't keep accepting your apology straight away; I'm human, and I'm sensitive. I could never hate you, never ever. I'm just disappointed, and sad. And overwhelmed. I'm so sorry I made this happen, Rye," he sobbed quietly, kissing my lips. I sighed into the kiss, having missed it for so long. And I wasn't even exaggerating when I said I couldn't remember the last time we'd shared a kiss that was just sweet and gentle. Free from hurt or disappointment.

"You didn't cause this, mi amor. It's my own flaws that made me like this. I don't know what you can see in me. Don't see how you look past the monster I am. How did I find someone as angelic and good as you?"

He chuckled, his smile having been something else I'd missed. So much had happened to him, both with me and his family, he'd struggled to give a genuine smile like this. "I'm far from angelic, I assure you. I don't see a monster, either. Come on, bub. Let's get you under the covers, yeah?"

Andy helped me up, taking my hand firmly as I climbed under the covers, cuddling up against him. Again, something I'd missed.

Warning: sexual content aka smut. Don't read if you're uncomfortable. I will put !! when it's over x

I hummed in relief and content, the smallest smile appearing when Andy started shifting around. "Stay still," I whispered, and he let out a whimper in response.

Opening my eyes again, I lifted the covers and chuckled at the sight of his hardened member. He groaned and nuzzled into me, making me more aroused by the minute.

"Mm, Ryannn," he gasped, kissing my lips softly. I pushed my shirt off and reconnected our lips after he'd pulled away, allowing the blonde to straddle my waist. "You want me to take control today?" He asked softly, and I nodded, allowing my eyes to slip shut. My mouth slipping open as he took off his own shirt and kissed down my body, tracing my abs.

Andy's P.O.V

I glanced up at Rye, who had relaxed under my touch. Despite how much he'd hurt me, I could never hate him. Of course, I wouldn't forgive him straight away, but I wanted it all to work out with us.

I bit down gently on certain spots, causing Rye's breathing to become hitched as he squirmed. "Mi amor... don't tease," he growled softly, hands tangling in my hair. Once I reached the waistline of his jeans, I stopped to take them off, throwing my joggers off too. Kissing his tip through the fabric, giggling when I earned a small moan from the brunette. "G-God, ahh!"

I shushed him, palming him softly. "The boys will hear, Ryan."

"Let them," he snapped, throwing his head back on the pillow. "Fucking take them off, Andy!"

I tugged his boxers down, another small giggle slipping out when his cock sprang straight up. I wrapped my fingers around it and kissed the tip ever so gently, Rye letting out a breath he'd been holding in. My tongue swirled around and I finally gave in to his pleads, taking his length in my mouth. Hand working what I couldn't fit in. I started grinding down onto the bed, thoughts becoming more hazy. Rye gripped my hair harder, pushing my head down further and making me gag slightly. I held down Rye's hips, to control his movements a little.

"M-mi amor, o-oh, fuck!"

I smirked and popped off, slipping my panties off and kissing Rye's lips. He whined when I sat up, having been close to his climax.

"Shh," I said, finger to my lips. I slipped a condom on Rye's member, almost holding back as I watched him slick it up with lube. Positioning myself down onto his cock, grimacing at the pain from not having done this in a long time. Of course, we'd had moments to ourselves after Ana was born, but there'd been no love making for the last two months or so.

Once I felt Rye all the way inside me, his hands gripping my waist, I pulled almost all the way out before starting to move, holding onto his arms for support. I rolled my head back, the lust overtaking my senses. The two of us letting out small grunts and moans, and Rye brought me down to kiss my forehead. His own was sheen with sweat, hair sticking to it.

"Damn, you're t-tight, baby," Rye laughed, but it was more of a gasp. "I fucking missed this." His husky tone made me go faster, tears falling. Rye reached up and wiped them away, going back to grip the sheets desperately.

"S-so did I, ahh," I grinned, feeling a warmth pool in my stomach. "I-I'm close, Rye."

"So am I, love. Let it go," he nodded and as if by command, I released over his stomach, feeling him fill the condom deep inside me. Unholy yells escaping from our mouths, and laboured breathing as we came down from our highs together.

!!

Like we'd vowed to do everything together. In fidelity, and unconditional love.

I pulled off of Rye and cleaned us up, laying back down next to him. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close, sighing heavily.

"Where would I be without you, huh?"

And I didn't know how to answer the question; maybe because I didn't know my own answer.