Absent Student | KomaHina

Chapter 8

H-Hajime, think! Do something, move! I need to do something that he wouldn't be expecting. I need to somehow take him aback. It was weird how many thoughts my brain was processing in the few last seconds. The situation felt to me like if it was in slow motion, probably because of the rush of adrenaline. I reduced all the distance that was left between us and saw him slowly pulling the trigger. I didn't have time to struggle with him to take the gun away. In the worst scenario, if we struggled I could be the one taking his life away by an accident.

Not able to come up with anything clever I firmly pressed my lips against his. His eyes widened, cheeks started getting redder with every past second. I saw his grip loosening a bit on the weapon, but it still wasn't enough. I deepened the kiss wrapping my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. Komaeda was gasping fo air, but I didn't pull away from him; instead, I placed my leg between his legs to support myself more and bit his lip. A small moan left his lips making it possible for me to force my tongue inside his mouth and tangle with his.

Tears were running down from his now half closed eyes. He dropped the gun softly on the bed as he just wasn't able to hold it anymore, he was shaking so much in my hands. I wondered if he was disgusted that I kissed him in that way. I pulled away from him to get some air. I should stop it now. I made him drop the gun, so I shouldn't go further than I already did. It's not necessary.. I hope he knows that I kissed him only because I needed to. And I didn't really enjoy it..! I totally did enjoy it but I just didn't want to accept it as a fact. "H-Hina..ta..k-kun.." he was looking at me with half-lidded eyes.

Suddenly I felt his hands wrapping tightly around my waist. He kissed me back unhesitatingly which drew a muffled moan from me. It made me blush heavily right away. "K-Komaeda.. I-I.. d-d.. don't do that to me ever again!" I suddenly felt all the suppressed emotions pouring out of me. Tears ran down from my olive eyes. I didn't cry like this for a while. I felt relieved. I'm just happy, happy that he's alive, that I can hear his voice, see his smile.. I sank my hand gently into his fluffy hair. I've always wanted to do it. I brushed it caringly through it while being surprised how nice it felt to pat and ruffle it. It was softer than I had imagined. Komaeda's cheeks were rosy now, suddenly I felt embarrassed. Really embarrassed. I was the one who initiated the kiss after all.

The sudden silence between us felt awkward. I cleared my throat. "Komaeda? D-do you want.. a hug or something?" he blinked in surprise. "O-oh.. well, if Hinata-kun wants it too then.." he coughed and looked on sides. He was embarrassed too. "I-I'm fine with it.." he shook his head, "I meant.." and inhaled, "Yes, p-please!"

I chuckled. "You're so cute~" he blushed at my statement.

I sat next to him and hugged him warmly. He rested his head on my shoulder, his distressed breathing soon calmed down. I was patting his back gently. I wanted to give him all the love and attention that he needed at this moment, although I still wasn't sure about my feelings towards him. "I-I'm sorry, Hinata-kun.. you've seen the worst part of me.. that must've been awful, hehe.. I wouldn't be surprised, if you felt disgust and hatred towards me after that." his hair was tickling my neck a bit, I liked the feeling of it. "It's all right, Komaeda. It's really fine... I won't ever hate you.. all that matters to me is that you're alive, I'm not judging you. I'm just glad that you're alive and warm in my hands without a bullet in your head.." I was trying to reassure him. I pulled away from the hug to wipe his tears away also I took the gun out of his reach placing it on a bedside table and noting in my head to get rit of that damn thing later.

He sniffled. "A-ahh.. about the things I said about my class." he cleared his throat. "Do you want to hear me out?" he asked politely while shifting and trying to reduce distance between us. "I mean you don't have to.." He felt uneasy and so did I; things between us felt awkward after that kiss thingy.