Absent Student | KomaHina

Chapter 3

- a week later -

It was a hard week for me. I tried hard to gather more data about Komaeda.. but it was nearly impossible. My classmates didn't want to say even a word about him anymore, literally, no one was up to talking about his case, even the sneaky methods of making them talk were pointless. I was probably in a place you could call 'the dead end'.

So I.. gave up. At least I tried to force myself to give up in order to not go insane. The name drilled into my head and I was repeating it over and over and over again wondering what kind of person they are.

Why am I so obsessed about Komaeda in the first place? It's not like I've ever met him or anything. I just saw an empty desk, got interested in the cause of the occurrence, then sneaked to catch a glimpse of the attendance register and peeked at the list of students' names and.. finally got to know the absent student's name. Nagito Komaeda. Komaeda.. Komaeda... I shook my head. Thinking about his name alone wasn't leading me to anywhere. It was just making me feel like a creep.

However, I couldn't think of any way to go on with my investigation. My head felt so empty. So.. I decided to focus more on spending some good time with my classmates. It was fun, but.. my eyes almost always were fixed on that empty fucking desk. The more I tried to forget about the mystery hiding behind Komaeda's absence, the more it was consuming me.

And one day, when I was walking down a hallway, I accidentally overheard Komaeda's name in someone's conversation. Two teachers, one of them was Yukizome-sensei, were talking about him in the teachers' room. Don't stop going Hajime.. Don't stop. You can't do it. Eavesdropping is not good.... I sneaked near the room and started listening secretly to the teachers' conversation. I was such a scumbag.

"...must be tough for you. I feel sorry for you that he was assigned to your class." the other teacher laughed. I wasn't sure if he was concerned about the women, he seemed to just be mad at something or someone. "N-no, you're wrong! Komaeda-kun is a good kid!" Yukizome-sensei seemed troubled. "H-he.. just has some problems." she stuttered.

My heart was beating like crazy. Is it because I'm doing something slightly illegal, or because.. I finally have a chance to hear something more about him? Probably both. I smiled idiotically.

"Don't tell me you're still siding with that kid..?" the teacher's tone of voice was a bit too harsh in my opinion, almost disrespectful. I felt sorry for Yukizome-sensei. She really is the kindest teacher I've ever met so far. "After all those things he's done to himself, no.. to ALL of your students and even you?! You must've finally realized by now that he's just fucking insane!" he said angrily while hitting his fist against a table.

What did Komaeda do..? That teacher talks about him as if he did some seriously bad things.. But that's too cruel to talk like that about someone either way. 

"I know he did some terrible things in the past, but I'm sure that all of it can be somehow explained!" she was upset and did her best at trying to soothe the other teacher. "It's still not too late to help him, I'm sure of it!" she seemed desperate to some degree.

"Are you sure of it..?" the teacher snickered. His voice came off as ironic. "You know that just a few days ago he overdosed some sleeping pills, right? He tried to kill himself once again! That kid is not only a real pain in the ass, because he's being disrespectful towards everyone and doing fucked up things that only god can understand, but he as well doesn't know how to treasure his own life..! I hate the likes of him..." I wanted to punch that teacher by now. He was acting like he had all the knowledge of the world packed in the little brain of his.

Although I was mad I felt shaken whilst realizing something. H-he tried.. WHAT?! I felt that my heart suddenly stopped beating for a brief moment then a not slight pain struck my heart.