Regretful Past [Bakudeku Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Regret One

I wonder how long it's been since the day everything came crashing down onto me? I haven't been the same since that day. I quit aiming to be a top pro hero, I ignore everyone from my days at UA, and I keep to myself from my family. Everyday I remain locked up in my home, in the dark, and the only time I'll go out is for groceries and other necessities. Today seemed like one of those days where I'd have to go out, so with that I grabbed my bag and keys and left my apartment.

As I was walking down the sidewalk with my earbuds in, I thought to myself as to why I did all of that to him. To me all that nerd did was support me, even when I didn't ask for it, and what did I give him in return? Nothing. All I told him was to kill himself, that he couldn't be a hero, that he was nobody compared to me when in reality I knew of his potential to become what he dreamt of being. And what do you know? He actually went ahead and ended his life because the one who he looked up to looked down on him.

If anyone, it should have been me who died, not him. I have made greater mistakes than he had, for example what I did to All Might. If I had been stronger and didn't let the League of Villians capture me, then he'd still be the number one hero. All Might was the nerd's number one hero and his teacher, yet he wasn't there for the him every step of the way. Now that All Might's power is diminished and the damn nerd is gone too, no one can be as great as them. His time in UA wasn't any different from middle school for him, but practically the entire class was his friend. He had everyone in our class at UA supporting him and comforting him, but I was the only one of whom he'd known longer and the only one who wasn't there for him.

While I was walking down the sidewalk I looked up at the sky, taking out my earbuds doing so. I took a good look at the sunrise and took in a breath of the fresh air around me. I stay cooped up in my apartment for so long, mainly because I still stay in shape and don't eat much to begin with, that have to force myself to step outside my front door for no more than five minutes. I never really liked being outside to begin with but that dislike of mine turned into something I'd like to avoid most of the time. However, this wasn't too bad, it's just that looking up at the sky like this reminds me of one memory with the nerd.

He and I had come across one another a few months after we graduated from UA and we both knew how the other felt about one another, but we did one simple thing together and frankly I enjoyed it. It's the one memory I cherish that I made it with that nerd. The sun was rising and the way the light reflected off his curly green locks was somewhat alluring. His green eyes almost a golden colour from the light of the sun, his shadow danced behind him as he watched the sun, and his never ending smile plastered on his face radiated the most. All these years I've been stuck with him around and that day I only realized what I didn't for so long. I can't even remember as to why I hated him so much since our childhood, and if I did it wouldn't make much difference now.

To be honest, I miss him being around. I missed calling him by the name I gave him and hearing the one I received from him in turn.

I'm sure his mother is still trying to get over it but I would know that it would take a while for this wound to heal. Trying to remember the past was only rubbing salt in the wound, so I continued to walk towards the convenience store to try and clear my mind. When I went inside I quickly bought whatever I'd eat for a few days, paid for everything at the cash register, and left for my apartment. The whole time my mind kept thinking about the nerd, Deku. It was like he was a magnet in some way, and he surely affected others with his death too. I bet he wasn't thinking about anyone or the consequences that would follow suit after he died, but it's not like there was anyone there with Deku to stop him. Only I wish that were true.

I was indeed in his presence when he died, but it was like my body wouldn't move even when I wished it to. Just seeing him wearing that sad smile during his final moments was enough to make my body freeze in a sense of fear. I guess a fear of losing something, or in this case someone, but now he's gone all because I didn't stop him. I was sure that someone had to have some kind of quirk that enabled someone to go back and re-live their life from a certain timeframe, but so far I haven't found anyone with a quirk remotely close. That doesn't mean I'm giving up though, once I find someone who has that kind of power I'm going back to fix everything starting in the first year of UA.

I, Bakugou Katsuki, have a past full of regrets, and I killed someone. Izuku Midoriya. Deku, you damn nerd. Why did you go and kill yourself? I'd hate to admit it but this world is awfully quiet without the both of us around. Guess you could say I miss having you around.

" So if you're listening to me from where ever you are you damn idiot, just wait for me." A shuddered breath escaped my lips after I spoke, so I started to pick up the pace and after a couple of minutes I was back inside my home. Back in the dark and lonely lifestyle I've created for myself. " Damn it Deku, why'd you leave so soon?"

AN: Alrighty, the first chapter to this. Now I want to thank -PointlessWriter for making the cover for this fanfic, and now I wanna say that when I started writing this I was like "How on Earth am I gonna continue writing it?!" around like the fourth or fifth paragraph. But hey it's up now, and one last thing. This fanfic will mostly be in Bakugou's POV but if I change it to someone else or to a third partyI'll let you know in a AN at the start of the chapter. So I hope this made some sense and that you enjoyed cuz I'll see you in the next chapter!!!

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