Regretful Past [Bakudeku Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Regret Sixteen

The school day went by quick, as it usually does, but nothing happened. The new girl was silent all day, however, Deku and I had walked up to her to be her friends, but she ran off. I don't know why, but I think we'll get our answer tomorrow. Girls like her will apologize for their actions the next day.

So Deku and I decided to walk around town for a bit before going to his apartment. His mother was there preparing dinner for the three of us, so we were in his room hanging out. We talked about how we could approach the new girl, Kira, tomorrow, talked about Todoroki and how he didn't do anything today, and anything that happened to pop up.

When the topic of Todoroki came up, Deku would look absentmindedly somewhere and remain silent until I changed the topic. I think he's still shaken up from what that damn bastard did to him, and as much as I wanted to ask Deku for details about it, I didn't want to mess anything up between us. That is until Deku asked me something.

" You want to know what happened that night, right? Don't worry, I won't be mad if you do."

With that small piece of reassurance, I slowly nodded. Deku grabbed a hold of one of his notebooks and rolled onto his side on his bed. I remained standing proped against his chair at his desk, facing him. He went on with what he was going to tell me.

" When you went to talk with Kirishima, Todoroki came up to me and started to pull me out of the building, saying he wanted to talk to me privately. As we were walking in the garden, Todoroki pulled me behind some bushes with him and started telling me these weird things."

" What weird things?"

" ... Saying that he liked me... That he liked me so much he wanted to do these weird things..."

" I don't mean to bring up bad memories, but what kind of things?"

" ... He wanted to kiss me, and hold me... and... the other thing... After he told me all of that he started saying "I love you" against my neck... and then you know what happened after that..."

I couldn't believe this. That damn Icy-Hot has some fucking nerve to do all of that to Deku! To my Deku! He's going to pay for this!

As I was processing what Deku had told me, I noticed that he was shuffling around a lot more than usual. So I stood up straight and walked over to him before hanging over him. The movement surprised him a bit but I needed to make sure of something. His ears were red, his lips pressed tightly against each other, nervous movement; he was hiding something.

" Deku. If your hiding something from me you'd better tell me what it is."

" I'm not hiding anything, Kacchan."

" Yes you are."

" No I'm not!"

" Then look me in the eyes and tell me that."

I stared right into his eyes as he looked into mine, before he turned away without saying anything.

" I knew it. So, tell me." I watched as he curled up a bit, trying to fend something off, " Listen, I want to know everything so I know how to help you. And so I can beat that bastard into a bloody pulp!"

Deku looked over his shoulder towards me then back towards the wall before curling up even more.

" ... He touched me..."

What he said was almost inaudible, but I heard it, and I was furious.

I pushed off from the bed and walked onto the balcony before grabbing the railing and yelling at the top of my lungs, " Damn Icy-Hot!!!"

I stayed out there to cool off my temper, but it wasn't working. I fell onto the concrete floor of the balcony and sat with my back against the concrete wall, slouching. My breathing was erratic, my anger was boiling, my hands were tightly curled into fists so much so that my fingernails drew blood from my palms, and my eyes were shut tightly.

I can't believe it. Was this what Deku was going through the first time? Was this the reason he started skipping school? Was this the reason why he killed himself? Did he feel so alone that the only way out was to kill himself?

All these questions swirled about, unanswered, in my head for what seemed like an eternity. Those questions were painful, not only for my mind, but for my heart as well. I could feel it clench tightly from the pain of all these realizations.

As I was trying to take my mind off from all the messed up thoughts in my head, I could heard the pitter patter of feet walking towards me. Then they stopped. The next thing I knew, I was being held in someone's embrace, and then another unexpected and unforeseen thing happened. I had no time to realize what was happening, but finally my mind started to work properly and that's when I realized.

Deku's lips were on mine.

This damn nerd was kissing me, and embracing me. He was doing this when in actuality, I should've been the one to do this. I'm supposed to be the one to comfort this damn nerd, to support him, to help him, but instead, he's the one comforting me, supporting me, helping me.

I gave into the kiss and before the fire that was lit could burn more ferociously, I gently pushed Deku back and held him by the arms.

" Thank you, I guess I needed that, huh?"

" ... I don't like seeing you get so worried and worked up about something. Especially if it's for my sake. And plus... I kinda wanted you to have it..."

" Have what?"

" ... My first kiss..."

I get my face heat up, but I soon smiled and started to chuckle and eventually laugh aloud. I must've startled Deku by it, but I soon took him into my arms and gave him a light squeeze.

" So I guess this means we're dating now, huh?"

I felt Deku nod. I hummed a sigh of content, and then I let go of him to help him up, seeing as we were being called to dinner.

AN: Yay! Deku gave Kacchan his first kiss! Idk, I feel like giving your first kiss to someone you know loves you dearly is a special and honorable thing to give that person. Idk if that made sense, but if you know what I mean then there you go. You can comment a clearer explanation for others to understand if you want. Anyway, this is going to be the last update I put up for this one. That way the third one I'm gonna write will be my little stockpile of updates. So I hope you enjoyed these updates and I'll see you guys next week in the next chapter!!!

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