Regretful Past [Bakudeku Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Regret Five

It's almost been a year since Deku died, and I still wake up to the same nightmare every night. Sometimes I call Kirishima to come over just to end up showing him my weakened state when Deku was the only one I'd show that side to. Every time the nightmare starts it always plays out the same way, I'll close my eyes only to open them and be in a different room. Then the next time I blink I see his dead body surrounded by a pool of blood, his blood, and I see him wearing that sad pathetic smile during his final moments alive. I always snap myself awake as I never want to see the rest or even see if it even continues on.

Everyone has pretty much forgotten about what happened, the only ones who keep from forgetting are Todoroki, Kirishima, and myself. A whole year passed and we still can't move on, and as so Todoroki and I are still in search of someone with a quirk that will help me in fixing things. We've searched and searched but we still haven't found anything. There have been many times where either me or Icy-Hot felt like giving up, but we promised to ourselves and to Deku that we'd keep going. We'd keep going until we found that person who would help us.

Aside from Mineta's wedding about six months ago, Denki got married to Jiro, Sero married Mina, Ojiro married Hagakure, and Iida married Uraraka. The only ones who saw no point in marrying were Kirishima, Todoroki, Tokoyami, Koda, Sato, Shoji, and myself. Aoyama was too much of a person to love himself than others, Yaoyorozu seems to show interest in Todoroki but seeing that he has no interest it'll never work. As for myself, I could get along with no one. The only person I felt a connection to was the one person who disappeared from this world because of me.

Even right now as I'm sitting on my bed still trying to recover from the nightmare I had, I could still see his dying smile as he continued to bleed out. I just stood there in the nightmare when in actuality I had run after him in a hurry after his body fell to the floor. I never understood how some one whose experienced something like this could ever move on, to me this seemed like a curse.

I was getting thirsty so I got up from my bed slowly and steadily walked over to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I had forgotten that Kirishima came over after I called him so he kind of scared me when I saw him sleeping on the couch. With my worries over I went over to a cabinet, opened it, grabbed a glass, and went over to the sink. I let the water run for a bit so it could get cold before holding the glass underneath the faucet. I turned the water off and went back over to the cabinet to close it and walked over to the island and leaned against it. It was until now that Kiri had started to shift a bit and eventually look up to me from the couch.

" Mmm... Hey Bakugou, why are you up? Same nightmare again?"

" ... I was thirsty is all."

" Sure. I've been meaning to ask you since Iida's wedding, but why haven't you been going to everyone else's wedding? Ever since you went to Mineta's everyone was inviting you and Todoroki, but you guys never showed."

" Do I have to be the person to explain that to you?"

He knows what me and Icy-Hot are trying to do, and yet he's acting dumb about it. God is he annoying, but like I said before he sure does help me a lot in getting through the day.

" I told you at Mineta's wedding, me and now Icy-Hot are looking for someone with a quirk that will allow me to go back and fix what I've done. I can't afford any more distractions. I have to do this."

" Bakugou..."

The conversation seemed to stop there, we were coming close to territory neither of us wanted to cross. He was good at making sure to keep from crossing that imaginary boundary and it sure meant a lot that he didn't.

It was probably 5:00 AM when Kiri had went home and I had gotten a call from Todoroki.

" Bakugou, I can't find anyone with a quirk remotely close to what we're looking for. I think we'll have to stop this searching and just come to terms with it. I'm not saying we should forget him, seeing as everyone already has, but he should just stop looking."

" You can stop looking I'm going to keep going, people need him and his power that All Might had given him. Without him there's no symbol of Peace, and without that the villains will start getting more ballsy."

There was a long pause but Icy-Hot let out a tired sigh.

" Alright, I'll keep looking. I just hope this person we've been looking for isn't a villain seeing as no hero has a quirk like the one we're looking for."

" Yeah."

We continued to talk for a bit longer and then after about ten minutes the phone call ended. I set my phone down on the countertop of the island and pinched the bridge of my nose with my finger and thumb. I swear, every time I close my eyes I see the same thing play out, I see that nerd's final smile before the light in his eyes disperse. Before I left the kitchen for the bathroom I could feel someone watching me, and frankly I hoped I hoped wasn't going this crazy.

AN: Here's chapter five, I meant to finish it yesterday but school work got to me. But here it is and when I get home I'll start on Artist's Hands. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'll see you in the next one!!!

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