Regretful Past [Bakudeku Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Regret Fifteen

I decided that the damn nerd would stay at my place for the night, since my gut wouldn't stop twisting over and over, all because of some bad premonition. Damn. That new girl just had to set me off, and I don't mean I lashed out on her, no, she just gives me bad vibes that I just can't ignore. Anyway, Deku and I had dinner, talked some more about the new girl, and as we were about to go to bed, Deku asked me something.

" Kacchan? Do you think... I could sleep with you?"

" Why's that?"

" Well lately, I feel as though I'm being watched when I go to sleep, so I was thinking-"

" Alright, whatever makes you feel comfortable, dumbass." I replied in a hushed tone.

A few minutes later, we were in my bed, and I could tell that both of us were embarrassed about the situation. However, I soon grew to enjoy it. If I can have moments like these, then I'm content. Suddenly Deku spoke up again, this time with all seriousness.

" Were we ever like this in your time?"

The question took me aback and terrible memories had reappeared in my mind. I shut my eyes closed tightly, and reopened them, trying to get those memories out of my mind. I cleared my throat a bit and answered honestly.

" ... No, no, we were never like this. We always fought with each other, ever since middle school, up until you-"

I stopped there. I didn't want to say it, as saying it would show me what happened that day.

' If I can keep him alive after January twentieth, things will be fine. Right? '

I kept thinking this to try and console myself before Deku asked something of me yet again.

" I don't mean to bother you with my questions, Kacchan, I just want to know everything that happened between us so I can help you too."

" You know, hearing you say that gave me a boost of security and comfort."

" Really?"

I watched as his eyes lit up from what I said; I nodded. My small smile soon became a smirk when I told Deku about something.

" Also, I've already told you everything that happened. Remember?"

I felt the nerd freeze up in my hold, and I soon saw his face turn a bright red. I chuckled at the sight, receiving a small little punch to the arm, which caused me to breakout laughing. Deku soon joined in with my laughter.

We calmed down a bit and so I took a hand and brushed his hair out of his eyes, tucking it behind his ear, wearing a gentle smile.

" Go to sleep, you damn Deku."

" You too, Kacchan."

I kept my smile until I knew that he was asleep.

I kept thinking about the new student that came to UA, more over, our classroom. I kept thinking about any possible relations she would have to Shigaraki, if she had any to begin with. And sadly, with all my thinking, I saw that the time was about two in the morning. I cursed at myself for staying up so late, but I stopped doing so when I heard something from Deku.

I turned over to face him and then gently turned him towards me. I could see from the moonlight that he was crying. So, because of this, I drew him close to me and held him tightly. Though I didn't know what was causing him his painful emotions, there was one thing that I thought was the cause of it; Icy-Hot.

It had to be why Deku was upset. After all, dreams are created with the memories you gain while your subconscious mind works in organizing those memories that are important, and those that are not. However, if a memory was very stressful to one, then it can lead to some very vivid and uncontrollable dreams that he won't want to have.

I'm no expert, but I know a few things.

Anyway, at the rate things are going, I don't think I'll ever talk with that damn bastard. Not after he sexually assaulted Deku at a party.

With this in mind, I suddenly recalled Kirishima doing the same thing to me a while back ago. Damn. Were these two this crazy for me and Deku before all of this? If so, I don't remember how I shook Kiri off of me.

Oh, hold up. That's right, I remember how I did it.

Deku's suicide.

His suicide gave me a way to bury myself in my home, gave me a place to runaway from everyone else. I don't want to lose Deku, not again. I don't want to go back to locking myself up in my house, not letting anyone in but Kirishima. I need to get everything together, I need to think on how I'm going to keep things as they are right now.

" ... Ka... cchan..."

I was a bit startled when I heard Deku talk in his sleep, but I was relieved. He had said my name with absolute comfort, and that's all I needed to know; was that he was comfortable around me.

I stayed up for a while longer before falling asleep, holding onto Deku.

The next morning came by too quickly for my taste, but that's what I get for worrying too much about the new student. I got out of the bed, without disturbing Deku, and did all of my business. When I came back into the bedroom, I saw that Deku was sitting up, rubbing his eyes. I sighed and put on a small smile before walking up to him.

AN: Here's one of three chapters I'm putting up for this today. I feel like I should make up for the lack of chapters by doing this since I think I'm free from schoolwork overload. Anyway, I hope you like this chapter and the next couple to come and so, I'll see you in the next one!!!

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