Regretful Past [Bakudeku Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Regret Four

I stood leaning against Kirishima's car looking up to the sky until I heard the footsteps of a small group coming up to me. Looked down to see who they were and saw that Kiri had brought Todoroki, Iida, and Uraraka.

" What's this about Kiri? Why'd you bring them here?"

" Bakugou just hear them out alright? They want to tell you something."

" What? Are they going to tell me the same thing you told me a few days ago? To let him go? Nice try pal, ain't happening."

Icy-Hot decided to chirp in while I was talking with Kirishima.

" Bakugou, we all know how much Midoriya meant to you, how much he really meant to you. Just like you, we still can't shake him off and leave him to be forgotten. However, we still need to find common ground and accept the fact that he's gone."

" He right Bakugou, Iida and I were practically with Deku all the time. I know how you feel about it, I know more than anyone actually. You cared for him, didn't you?"

I hated where this was going and frankly I just wanted everyone to leave me alone so I could find someone with a quirk for me to go back and fix everything. If they heard of my goal I know for sure they'd stop me, but at the same time I want them to know. My anger was so pent up right now that I guess my mind slipped and made my lips form the words of my goal.

" I'm getting so tired of this shit! Why does everyone intend on making me forget Deku?! There's no way in fucking Hell I'm forgetting him, not like everyone did with All Might! No, if you really want to know why I'm so pent up on the subject then I'll tell you why! I've been searching for someone who has the ability to rewind time so I could go back and change all that I've done!"

That sure enough got the four of them to shut up and it seemed as though Todoroki took me seriously on it, not saying I'm not serious about my goal but he believed me.

" If that's what you're looking for then I could help, but Bakugou. Think about today, this is the wedding of Mineta and Asui. If you manage to go back and change what you've done, this day may not even happen."

" It's better than living in a world without that nerd, people need him. He had All Might's power and now it's gone along with him. I still can't face Deku's mother yet, and frankly I don't think she'd want to anyway."

" Which is why we brought her with us. You can come out from behind me now, Miss Midoryia."

I looked over Icy-Hot's shoulder and saw that a small woman was hiding behind him, it was Deku's mother. I stepped back and looked away on pure instinct, but it wasn't enough. I wanted to leave but I was cornered.

" Bakugou..." She started, " Why would you think I wouldn't want to see you?"

I froze, I haven't told anyone what really happened. No one knows that I was with Deku when he died and if they found out now, but it wouldn't matter. Would it? If Todoroki keeps to his word in helping me then it's not like they'd have any recollection of this day to begin with. As much as I wanted to tell them I remained silent.

" You don't have to tell me, I can understand your reasoning anyway."

I like Hell you do. She stayed with us a while longer until Iida and Uraraka took her back to join with everyone else. Kiri left as well because he wanted to catch up with everyone there, so it was me and Todoroki left standing. I decided I'd tell him what really happened, because even after I tell him there's a small chance that he'll still help me.

" Hey Icy-Hot, I was waiting for everyone to leave to tell you about... about what really happened four months ago."

" Why confide it with me?"

" You just seem to be the reasonable type alright? So do you wanna hear it or not?"

" If you could tell me that would most appreciated."

I went over to the front of the car and sat on the hood of it while Todoroki leaned on the spot I was before hand, on the passenger side. I crossed my arms and looked to the sky again and let out a breath I had held onto for a little bit now.

" I was with him on the day he killed himself." I started and waited for a bit for any kind of reaction but I got nothing so I continued, " We were at his house that he had bought with the earnings he received as a pro hero, he had asked me to help him with something but I didn't help with anything. He had me follow him into his room and he went on saying things that didn't make any god damn sense, but what I didn't realize was the fact that he had taken out a knife from one of the drawers in his desk. He stopped in front of the glass door that overlooked the beach with the setting sun touching the water, he turned and faced me with tears in his eyes and a sad pathetic looking smile plastered on his face. The whole time I was frozen in place, as much as I wanted to rush over to him to stop him, I couldn't. He plunged the knife right into his heart and fell to the ground with a thud. The sound of him falling to the floor seemed to be what released me from my frozen state and I rushed over to his weakening corpse." I stopped there feeling my throat start to convulse from holding back my unwanted tears.

" ... What did you do, with Midoriya that is."

" ... I held him in my arms and I tried to pull the knife out but he held my hand from doing so until his last breath..."

" Did he say anything to you?"

" He told me that his death wasn't because of me, it was because of his weakness. I told him otherwise but he didn't hear me... because it was too late... Just like that his life had slipped right through my fingers..."

It was silent for about five minutes before I heard Todoroki sniff and get off the car to look directly at me.

" I'll help you find a person with the kind quirk you're looking for, and we will bring Midoryia back."

I could tell that me telling him what really happened affected him deeply, I mean why wouldn't it? It was Deku who helped him see that those flames of his were indeed his own quirk, not his father's. That damn nerd helped a lot of people see their quirks differently and he helped them every step of the way. I looked into Todoroki's eyes and asked him something.

" Can you avoid telling the others? I don't know how they'll react if they learn of what really happened."

" Of course. You have my word, Bakugou."

" Thank you."

" We should be heading back, everyone will start wondering if we just left without saying anything."

" I highly doubt that."

We both chuckled at my small joke and headed back to join with the others. After telling Todoroki about what really happened four months ago it felt like a weight was lifted off my chest, and I could enjoy the day with everyone. Well maybe not with the adults but I certainly had a blast with Kirishima there with me, and I could tell that Deku was happy for me as well. I could feel it, but something inside of me could sense that he was a bit unsettled about my plan to get him back. Is this the right move or am I making things worse?

AN: Here's chapter four, and in this one I wanted to make it so that Bakugou could tell someone what really happened to Izuku. And I felt like it had to be Todoroki cuz he's the most level headed person I know in BNHA, everyone else would blame Bakugou in this situation in my personal opinion. Also I'm working on a set schedule for updating which stories on which date so I'll let you know the AN of which ever story I update tomorrow. So I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'll see you in the next one!!!

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