where we stand • book 2 of cdls

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If you didn't get to read chapter 18 everything that is brought up is all that happened. if you're still confused at the end, message me and I'll explain or tell you what happened.

• SUNDAY MORNING•

• Kaye POV •

"Hayes I don't remember." I told Hayes, my voice cracking. "Kaye, do you think we did?" He asked.

"I don't know, I just- I don't know." I sighed. He sat on the bed beside me. "We have to pack." He said.

"What if we did do it Hayes?" I asked. "I won't tell Matthew if you don't want me to." He said. I shook my head, "I'm not keeping things from him, not this time." I said.

"What if he breaks up with you?" He asked. "If he loves me, he'll see it as a stupid mistake, if he doesn't love me, he'll leave me and I won't blame him." I said.

My eyes started to water and Hayes wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "I'm so stupid." I shook my head, letting the tears fall.

"We all make mistakes Kaye and then we all learn from them." He said. He wiped my tears and looked at me.

"Matthew loves you and yeah he'll be mad, but he won't leave you." He said. "I hope you're right." I mumbled, "but thank you Hayes."

He nodded and walked over to his bag. He stated packing and I started packing.

I tried my hardest to remember what happened last night, but I couldn't remember a thing.

"Ready?" I heard Hayes. I nodded and we walked down to the lobby.

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We were on the plane and I got a text from Matthew.

From Matty Boo: I miss you, can't wait till you land(:

I sighed and put my phone away. Thinking about cheating on Matthew like I did, made me sick to my stomach.

I don't know if I actually had sex with Hayes, but I'll never know if I did or didn't.

I looked through my pictures and screamed. A few people looked my way.

"Hayes." I said. He looked over and I showed him the picture of a dick on my phone.

"Do you really think my dick is that small?" He said. "This isn't funny." I glared. "It's probably johns." He shrugged.

I kept scrolling through and my eyes started to water. "I got married!" I yelled. Hayes took my phone and looked at the pictures.

"You make a sexy bride." He smirked.

"Stop." I glared. "Kaye, what's that on your back?" He asked pointing to the picture.

"Is that a fucking burger on my back?!" I yelled. That had to be because of Madi, that girl fucking loves food.

"I'm going to kill her." I glared. "You have a fucking tattoo and you got married." Hayes said. "I need Jesus." I said, being serious.

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We walked out to Cameron's car and got in. "How was it?" He asked. I didn't respond, I just looked out the window.

"Alright." Hayes shrugged.

"What's wrong Kaye?" Cameron asked. "Nothing, I'm just a little tired." I shook my head.

"Okay.." He said.

when we got home, I went straight to my bed and laid down. "Baby." I heard. Matthew laid beside me and kissed my cheek.

I didn't know how to tell him I did all that stuff.

"Are you okay?" He asked. "Yeah." I nodded. "Good, I'm taking you out today." He smiled.