where we stand • book 2 of cdls

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• Hayes POV •

I sighed, throwing my phone on the couch once Kaye didn't answer for the fifth time. I start to worry once she's out past ten.

I don't know why Matthew keeps her out this late, don't pregnant people have to be sleeping at this time Anyways? I'm pretty sure.

I grabbed my phone and called Mathew.

He declined my call and I got up, grabbing my keys. I got in my car and drove to Subway.

The boys were there and I was invited, but I wanted to be home when Kaye got home cause I know she hated being home alone, but she's not answering so I'm assuming she's staying the night with Matthew.

I walked inside and they were at the table. I sat down and they all got quiet and looked at me. "What?" I asked, getting uncomfortable with them all staring at me.

"What's up with you?" Michael asked, "Yeah you look a little mad." Marcus added. I shrugged and shook my head, I didn't want to tell them because then they'll say I love Kaye and get on me about that and it's annoying.

"It's probably Kaye." John teased. "Shut up." I snapped, already getting mad. This is all they talk about with me and it's irritating.

I have feelings for Kaye, they just never seem to go away, but I know I don't deserve her and even if I did, I wouldn't leave Jordan.

"I'm gonna go, I need to clear my head." I said. Before they could respond, I got up and walked back out to my car.

When I got home, I went to my room and sat down on my bed.

I looked at my nightstand and I noticed there was a picture frame and there was a picture of Kaye and I.

I picked it up and it was a picture from when we were in California and we had been at the beach. It was a nice kissing picture, the perfect one actually. That was a really good day.

Sometimes I think about that summer, the good, the bad, and the perfect times with Kaye, I miss her a lot, I know she's here, but it feels like she isn't.

I just wish everyone would just stop teasing and making fun of how much I actually like Kaye.

I know I've kissed Kaye and expressed my feelings, but I can't help it and I've promised myself it wouldn't happen again.

I know I was stupid for that and it shouldn't have happened and it won't ever happen again.

I know I may think about Kaye or worry about Kaye, or still love Kaye, but that doesn't mean anything, I can't kiss her, I can't touch her, and I sure as hell can't want her.

I know that she's not mine anymore and I know it's all over between us and I'm okay with that, because when I did have her and when she was mine, it was the best thing of my life.

I know now, and I'm okay with it.

I just wish I could go back to the day, the day I cheated on Kaye. I still don't know why I did that, I think about it everyday and I just don't know why I did that.

I regret it so badly it hurts. I always think about what it could've been if I hadn't done something so horrible to her.

If I hadn't cheated on the one I used to love so much..

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• Kaye POV •

"I'm gonna get home to Hayes, he's probably worried." I told Cameron. "Tell him I said hey." He said. I nodded and went to Nash's room.

"I'm out." I told him. "Peace, I'll see you guys at the game." He said. It was Hayes' first football game tomorrow.

Matthew had already went home awhile ago, so I was driving home alone. I got in my car and drove home.

I walked inside and it was quiet. Usually he's on the couch waiting for me, but he wasn't this time and it worried me.

He doesn't come home late anymore because he needs his sleep, especially today since he has a game tomorrow morning.

I went to his room and saw he was laying down. I half smiled and walked in. He was cuddling into a picture frame of us and I smiled.

I looked at his face and noticed he had been crying. I sat at the edge of his bed and he started moving around and then he opened his eyes.

"It's late." He said rubbing his eyes. "I was looking at apartments with cam." I said. He sat up and set the picture frame down.

"Why were you crying?" I asked. "I wasn't." He lied. "You were." I said. "Tell me." I said.

"I'm happy." He said and I gave him a confused look. "Accepting a lot of things, makes everything better." He said looking at the picture frame of us kissing.

"And what's that?" I asked, looking at the picture frame.

"We were once in love and I'm glad for that, but it's time for me to stop and move on and I'm okay with that." He said.

I took his hand and he looked at me.

"I'm sorry for ever hurting you Kaye, you didn't deserve what I put you through." He said, his eye watering.

"It's in the past Hayes, I've done some pretty messed up things too, but without those rough times, we wouldn't be here, together, with two kids on the way. You have a good girlfriend who loves and cares about you just like I do, I'm glad you accepted everything." I said.

I kissed him on the cheek and rested my head on him.

He laid down and pulled me down with him. "I love you so much Kaye." He said. "I love you." I said. He hugged onto me and I pulled the blanket over the both of us.

"I miss you." I said.

I missed nights like this.

I missed being able to kiss, to touch, and to want Hayes, but I know that has ended and it'll never be back.

I couldn't help missing the way he would look at me, he looked as if I was his world and as if I was the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I miss being his one and only.

I just miss being his

But it's all over and I think I'm okay with it

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This was not planned omg. BUT are they fibbing? Are they really done? did they really let KAYES go?

POST YOUR OPINIONS HERE!

My opinion, Mathew Kaye and Hayes all fucked up, BUT they all deserve to be loved and maybe Kayes will happen and maybe Katthes will happen.

Just know...

One of them are gonna happen

Princess K is out bitches(;