Gracie Rose | tracy beaker returns {on hiatus}

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"I'm Benjamin. You must be Gracie. It's lovely to meet you!" Benjamin said. He was tall and skinny, but seemed nice so far. He shook my hand and carried my things into his house, and into the guest bedroom.

"I know this is going to be quite stressful for you, but I promise, things will be back to normal soon." He said. I nodded and gave him a weak smile before looking around the guest bedroom. He seemed like he wouldn't hurt me, but I couldn't be sure. I shut the door and took a massive sigh. I texted Tracy instantly, letting her know what had happened.

Hi Tracy,
I'm stuck at my social worker's friend's house. He's a therapist. Not sure what to think tbh.
Hope you're okay,
- Gracie xxx

I began to unpack my things when Benjamin knocked on the door.

"I've jut had a call from Mark, explaining that this may not be the best idea as you've had problems with therapists before. Is that right?" he asked. I nodded and sat down on the bed.

"Right, well if you just forget about the fact I'm a therapist and treat me like any other person, that should be okay, right?" Benjamin said. It wasn't going to help anything, but I said yes anyways.

"Do you need any help unpacking?" he asked.

I shook my head.

"I'll be fine." I replied. He smiled at me and left the room, gently closing the door. My phone buzzed when he closed the door. It was Tracy replying to my message.

Hi Gracie,
Can't believe they've put you with a therapist! Don't panic, just stay calm and keep smiling. Just be nice to him and try not to worry. I'm okay, just sitting at home having snuggles with Cam. I got home and had a big breakdown :( cried for 20 minutes straight. Cam's making me feel better with cuddles and ice cream. She gives you all her love. We will try and go to see Lily within the next few days and I'll keep you updated. I'm sure she'll be okay.
Hope to see you soon gorgeous.
- Tracy xxx

The mention of Lily made me sad. I missed her. I missed everyone, and it had only been less than an hour, but I was so worried about Lily. I just wanted her to be okay. I found a photo while unpacking my things of me with Lily, Tee and Carmen when we went to the beach recently. Lily wasn't feeling great because her sisters weren't with us, but we cheered her up. All I could think about in my head was Lily falling to the ground, and Tracy panicking from the rooftop. The memories came flooding back again, even though it was only this morning. I lay down in bed with my bunny and tried to get comfortable, but it just didn't feel right. Yes, the bed was comfy, really comfy to be honest, but it wasn't my bed. It wasn't right. I lay there for a while, trying to calm down and feel more comfortable when Benjamin knocked on the door.

"Fancy going out to McDonald's?" he asked.

I sat up and nodded, hoping that it would take my mind off today. I'd hardly eaten anything, other than breakfast, so it sounded like a good idea. I put my shoes on and left the bedroom to wait for Benjamin. He was in his room getting ready. I began to wander around the house, looking at everything he had. It looked as if he lived alone, and that he didn't have many friends, other than Mark. I walked into the kitchen to see a number of ashtrays for cigarettes. I instantly thought of what happened with mum last month. It still hurt me. The burn scars were beginning to form, and every time I saw them, I had all the memories flooding back to me. I ran back to the front door and stood there waiting for Benjamin. He arrived a few moments later and noticed the worry in my face.

"Are you alright?" he asked. I nodded and headed out to his car. It looked pretty old, but I didn't really mind. My phone beeped as Benjamin began to drive, so I checked it. I opened up a message from Tracy.