red | e.d

thirty two

EDEN-JADE THURLOW

" There's no way. I mean, you can't be- " Katie shook her head, refusing to believe what I had just told both her and Mackenzie.
The pair of them sat on my bed as I leant against my dresser, tapping my foot against the ground impatiently. I didn't know what to do while I waited, in fact, just the thought of that piece of plastic sitting in the bathroom was enough to make me feel sick.
" There is a way, it's called sex " Mackenzie joked, making me scoff, her dark humour enough to amuse me, even at a time like this.

Katie shoved her girlfriend's arm, smiling nonetheless. I, however, quickly returned to my frightened state, overthinking everything.
" Listen, there's no chance. You're just ill. Maybe you ate something, or Luke's kissing was bad- " Katie tried to think of all of the reasons, even the stupid ones, before Mackenzie cut her off.
" Luke's kissing isn't bad. He has no flaws. And like I said, there is a chance. How long do you have left to wait? " Mackenzie was being realistic, my eyes rolling slightly at her first comment.
As for her question, though, I had no idea.

" I don't know... How long are you meant to leave it for? " I asked seriously, watching as the girl fell back against my bed, covering her face with her hands.
" It's quite simple. You wait two to three minutes " When Mackenzie said this Katie raised a brow, the words leaving my lips quickly.
" I've never used a pregnancy test before, you're the expert " I joked, trying to lighten the mood a little.

After Mackenzie threw the pillow at my face, we returned to silence. It felt like an eternity, but when the timer that Katie had set went off, I felt my heart drop to my toes. I was beyond terrified. Whatever the results, I would figure this out. I knew I would.

Or I hoped I would, somehow.

I rushed into the bathroom and didn't even look at it, instead I picked it up, covering the results with my hand. I knew that if I looked at it myself, I'd most likely second guess it, or never believe it. I was glad Mackenzie and Katie were here to do this with me, it was comforting.

" Well... What does it say? " Mackenzie probed, my heart beat increasing as my shaky hands slowly flipped over the plastic test, the small screen visible under my fingertip.
I counted to three in my head before lifting my finger, the lines that appeared on the screen leaving me speechless.

When the girls saw my reaction their smiles dropped, both of their faces turning serious. They quickly glanced over my shoulder, their jaws dropping when they read over it, over and over again just to make sure. That's exactly what I was doing, too.

Because I was pregnant.

RED

I shoved the test into the pocket of my hoodie and headed out of my bedroom, closing the door behind me. My brother was asleep in his room, his snores loud enough to be heard from the kitchen, as I headed out of our house.

I was going to have to walk, but I didn't really care. I put my headphones in my ear and let the music submerge me, zoning out the whole way to his house, thinking about everything that had gone on.

What was I going to say? Hi, I know you hate me but you're going to be a dad, didn't sound too good.

I knew that I could have called Luke and he would have gladly given me a ride, but I hadn't spoken to him since our altercation. And by altercation I mean the fact that we made out. Out of nowhere.

Besides, a walk by myself was something I needed right now, strangely enough. It gave me some time to think. Maybe this was why I had been so damn emotional, or so confusing. I was like that anyway, I always had been, but every single thing seemed to hit me harder than it usually would have.