Broken || Yoonmin (Depressed Yoongi)

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Yoongi's POV

After Jin left I slowly started to eat my dinner. I was actually kinda hungry since I didn't eat anything since yesterday. The voice in my head stopped after Jin came in. I can't believe I broke down in front of him, he's knows I'm weak.

When I finished eating, I brought my plate into the kitchen and washed it. I went back into my bedroom as I wasn't in the mood to be around anyone.

I got in my bed and went on my phone yet again. This is becoming a bit of a habit now. I was jealous of the endless love the other members were getting from our fans.

I wish I was perfect like everyone else in the group. I wish I was funny and talented.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard a knock on the door. "Come in" I half yelled. Jimin opened the door and entered the room, he had a worried look on his face. He slowly walked over to the bad and sat down beside me.

"Yoongi, we need to talk" I looked at him confused. "Sure, what about?" "You" I slightly panicked but tried to hide it as best as I could. "What do you mean about me?" He hesitated for a moment then sighed.

"Yoongi, you have been getting really skinny lately, and I'm worried because I don't want you to go down the same path I did during our trainee days" he stopped talking, then looked at me straight in the eyes. My heart started to race.

"Jimin ah, what do you mean 'go down the same path', you're starting to worry me now" I tried to switch the focus back to him, but I was really worried about what he just said.

"During our trainee days, I thought I was fat, I compared my weight to everyone else's, I thought my body was disgusting. I starved myself and when Taehyung forced me to eat I would throw it back up. One day I collapsed when Tae and I were shopping. He called an ambulance and I was unconscious after that for a few hours. I was diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia and depression" I looked down at my hands for a moment. Then looked back up at Jimin. He had tears in his eyes threatening to fall.

My heart ached at the sight right in front of me. How can someone so beautiful go through something like that when they didn't deserve it?

"I hid all of that from the company as I was scared that they would kick me out. I promised Tae that I would try my best to get better. And I did, eventually" his voice cracked at his last sentence.

"Jimin, you are the most beautiful person ever, ok? You didn't deserve that experience, you are one of the best people I know. You are selfless and caring, and you deserve only the best in the world" I meant every word that I said to Jimin, I hate seeing the other members in pain when they really don't deserve it.

Jimin looked me in my eyes and then embraced me in his arms. I was tense for a moment but then relaxed under his touch. After a few moments he broke the hug.

"Yoongi, are you really sure you don't want to talk about anything?" I thought for a moment. "Jimin, I'm fine I promise. Don't worry if there was something wrong I would tell you guys" he nodded then left the room.

Jimin's POV

I know Yoongi is lying he is far from ok, I can see it in his eyes. I can tell that something else is wrong aswell. Why won't he open up to us? I heard him sobbing in his bedroom before Jin came and comforted him.

I heard almost every word Yoongi cried out. How could he even think that about himself,  and agree with fake fans and antis, it was honestly heartbreaking to hear.

Even if I wanted to comfort him before Jin did, he would have opened up to me.

I went back into my bedroom and closed the door, I looked over at Namjoon's bed and he was on his phone. He noticed I had entered and then sat up.

"Did you talk to Yoongi yet?" I sighed then looked at him.

"Yeah, I can tell he is hiding something and I think Jin knows something about it, but I won't force Jin to tell us if Yoongi isn't comfortable with it" I let out another sigh then hopped on my bed.

"He might open up to us soon, he probably just needs time" Namjoon spoke up. "But what if it's too late, he could probably get 100 times worse and then we won't know what to do. But hopefully it's really nothing too serious" I was so worried about Yoongi. Maybe tonight will be another restless night.

"I hope so too, we all know he struggled in the past, maybe he should go back to his therapist, it's been a few years since he last went" I hummed in response.

I looked at my phone and the time read 12:07. Hopefully our dance practice doesn't start early in the morning.

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