Broken || Yoonmin (Depressed Yoongi)

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Jimin's POV

I tried calling Yoongi for what felt like the one millionth time, and still no answer. I then texted him, yet again.

Chimchim:
Where are you??? I'm worried about you!! Please come back soon!!!

I slid my back down the front door, waiting for Yoongi to at least text saying he's okay. I wouldn't forgive myself if anything bad happened to him. I should've ran after him, god I'm so stupid.

After he left, Jin told us something that he should have told us long ago...

*Flashback to earlier*

After Yoongi slammed the door I stood there for a few seconds. I couldn't believe I just confessed my feelings to Yoongi, and in probably the worst time ever. Wow great thinking Jimin! The least I could do was just give him some space.

Hobi and Jungkook knew I had feelings for Yoongi, they never teased me about it, surprisingly.

I walked into the kitchen, looking down at my feet, not wanting to be in this room right now.

"Guys, there's something I really need to tell you...about Yoongi.....please don't be mad at me, we didn't want to say anything for the sake of the group" Jin said,making everyone look at each other.

"What is it?" We all said in unison, wanting to hear what the older has to say.

He just looked at us, one by one, then started to pinch the skin between his fingers.

"Um, so a few months ago, I found Yoongi unconscious in the bathroom..." I have a bad feeling about this, I tried to look at his eyes, but he just looked down at his hands. They were shaking and we signaled him to go on.

"He, uh, he harmed himself, with his razor. He had old scars too, but he just didn't want you guys to know. He had a panic attack when he knew that I cleaned his wounds, I'm sorry, I failed to be a proper hyung for him" We just looked at him, we couldn't believe what we just heard.

"Why tell us this now?" I said, feeling my heart sink down to my stomach. Why would he do that to himself?

Why doesn't he tell us anything? I covered my face with my hands, I couldn't look at Jin right now.

"I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer, I know that telling you this moment probably wasn't the best idea, but I just keep having nightmares about that night. I am his only hyung and I failed to see that something was up with him to stop that from happening. Sorry I'm so useless" Jin's voice broke, then suddenly Namjoon spoke up.

"No, I failed as the leader of the group, we knew something was up, but I should've talked to him more, we've been busy with our schedule to even notice how distant he's become in the past few weeks. I'm the leader so it's my responsibility to make sure everyone is okay mentally and physically, but I failed. I don't deserve to be the leader of Bangtan" I looked up at Namjoon, he had his head in his hands.

"Hyung, that's not true, how could you have known what was going on. We thought he was just stressed but it's obviously a lot more than that now. We have to get him help before something worse happens to him, but he doesn't want help, so what are we going to do?" I looked at Namjoon with sad eyes, he shouldn't be feeling like this now.

"He will come back, don't worry. Give him an hour,he probably just needed to blow off some steam, maybe he was just scared of what he thought was going to happen. If he doesn't call or text back in an hour we can go and look for him" Hoseok chimed in, trying to reassure us all. I nodded at him.

Time skip

It has been over an hour since we agreed to look around for Yoongi. I scanned around the dark alleyways trying to look for him.

I was out of breath from running around and there was no sign of Yoongi around at all.

I checked my phone but still was no sign of Yoongi. I called 911 and waited.

"911, what is your emergency?" "Um, hi I'm just calling to see if there is has been a report about a young man in his mid 20s?" "No there isn't any recent reports, are you looking for someone who is in risk of danger?" I let out a huge sigh of relief. "Thank you, I'm sorry it's fine" "Ok, take care" I then hung up,I was glad that hopefully Yoongi was safe and didn't do anything harmful.

*End of flashback*

I looked at the home on my phone and looked at the time. I was surprised to see that it is now 2:12 am and I made the others go to bed after looking around for Yoongi for ages.

I tapped on his name on my contacts and smiled when he finally answered it.

"Who it t-this?" I heard that voice that made me smile.
"Ah hyung!!! You're okay! Where are you? It's been hours, come back we need to talk, please!!!"

"Ah, Jimin ah! I'm not coming back to the dorm, why would I, you guys hate me and you guys are going to kick me out of the gwoup" I listened to every word he said, feeling sad at what he thinks we will do. His  voice was raspy and he only used that tone when he was really drunk.

"Yoongi are you drunk? We don't hate you, you need help. Where are you, I'll come and get you-" "Yes, I was drinking, but I'm not out, I'm in my stwudio" I was about to leave the dorm before he said he was in his studio, in a way I was happy that he wasn't out, but I was pissed off about him for leaving and not texting back for hours, leaving me to think the worst has happened to him.

"Why are you being like this Yoongi?" I raised my voice, but instantly regretted it and mentally slapped myself.

"Why is Diminie shouting? Hyung doesn't like that. Diminie is very scary when he is mad" I could tell he was pouting now.
"Yoongi, don't do anything stupid okay? I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to you. I'm not angry at you, I should've stopped you from leaving, I-" "I'm tired, I'm going to sweep" I heard a beep, meaning he just ended the phone call.

I aimlessly threw my phone anywhere, and was surprised I didn't hear a cracking noise. I looked around and seen it flat on the carpet in the living room. I lazily walked over to the couch and sat on it, deep in thought about what will happen in the next few days or so.

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