Broken || Yoonmin (Depressed Yoongi)

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Yoongi's POV

I twiddle my thumbs, thinking about what I should do.

Quit, just think about how much hate BTS  get because of you. The group would be better off without you.

"Mom, should I just quit?" I asked, with a serious look.

My mom just looked at me with a sad face and held my hands in hers.

"You worked so hard for your dream, you can't just throw all of that hard work away! Don't let cowards ruin your dream, you are better than this" my mother raised her voice slightly, tightening her grip on my hands.

"I'll call Bang pd-nim and ask him to come here" mom insisted. She left the room and then a doctor came in holding a flip chart.

"Hello, mr Min, are you still in pain anywhere?" He asked and I shook my head.

"I need to ask you a few questions, are you okay to answer them?" I nodded my head.

"Have you ever attempted suicide before?" He asked with a serious look.

"Yes, I have" I looked away, looking up at the clouds, the sky was starting to get dark.

"Do you hear voices in your head?" I looked down and nodded.

"How often do you hear the voices" he's going to think I'm crazy.

"Everyday" I answered.

"What do the voices say?"

"That I'm worthless, disgusting, fat, ugly, talentless" he scribbled something down on his flip chart.

"Are you struggling to eat food and or keeping it in without vomiting it out?" "Yes"

"How often do you force food out?"

"Sometimes a few times a day and sometimes only once a day"

"How long have you been doing this?"

"For a few years maybe, I'm not too sure exactly"

"I'm diagnosing you with depression, anxiety, bulimia and anorexia. Over the next 3 days, we are going to have a therapist come and talk to you, and I am prescribing you with antidepressants, they work for some people but we will just have to see how you are with them. You are also going to have nutritional meals and you will not be able to go to the bathroom for 30 minutes after you have eaten, you don't have to eat all of it but I hope that you will make a lot of progress and start a healthy recovery" he bowed and smiled.

Then my mom entered the room, holding her phone in her hand.

"Bang pd is in a meeting now, but he will come here straight away when he's finished" my mom said.

Time skip

We heard a knock on the door and my mother opened it, revealing Bang pd-nim. He bowed to all of us and my parents bowed back.

"Hello, mr and mrs Min. Hello Yoongi" my parents said hello back and so did I. He walked over to me and sat beside my bed.

"How are you feeling?" He asked, I could tell that he was crying a bit. My mom pulled a chair over, sitting at the other side of the bed and holding one of my hands.

"I'm fine now, just tired" I avoided eye contact with him.

"You can be honest with me, I'm not going to judge you. I know that you are struggling now, but I thought that you were doing fine... I should have notices some of the signs sooner. I'm sorry" he looked down, his eyes full of regret.

"Don't be sorry, it's my fault. To be honest, I've had some issues in the past, but I never said anything because I thought that I'd never get the chance to debut. But I never knew the pressure of being perfect in everyone else's eyes"

"Nothing like that would ever have happened if you told me, it's not your fault. Your mental health is just as important as your physical health. You shouldn't have to bottle everything up, I am here for you and the rest of BTS. If any of you are struggling with anything, please tell me. We all care about you, I'm not just saying that, I mean it" he smiles sadly, a tear rolling down his face.

"Thank you, for everything. I know that we can't thank you enough, but I do sincerely mean it"

"I am going to take legal action for all of those so called fans who were abusing you online, you've suffered enough and it should stop here. I know it may take you a while to recover, but I can see that you need to take a break, maybe spend some time in the dorm with the others. True ARMY fans will understand, so don't worry about this. Just focus on recovery for now and I will handle the rest. I will post an announcement later regarding your current situation and take care of the rest" I smiled sadly.

I felt a hot tear roll down my cheek, feeling too weak to wipe it away. My mom hugged me, as she whispered "It's going to be okay" I let out a sigh.

You ruined everything, you're never going to be okay. You weren't meant to survive your suicide attempt. No one will love you after they all find out.

Jimin's POV

Bang pd arrived at the hospital soon after he was done with his meeting. He is now talking with Yoongi is his hospital room.

"Do you think that Yoongi will leave the group?" Jungkook asked.

"I don't know, aish, I hope everyone who said shit about Yoongi behind their screen gets sued" Namjoon replied, ruffling his hair. This is the first time I've seen Namjoon this mad about how we are treated

"I can't believe how people can treat other people like they are objects. We are just doing what makes us happy" Jungkook said, releasing a long sigh.

Bang pd came out of Yoongi's room after about 20 minutes, his face was slightly puffy and his eyes were red.

"I am releasing an announcement later, and I'm going to sue the people who made Yoongi feel like this" he let a tear roll down his eye. We all hung our heads down low, expecting to be scolded.

"You guys shouldn't blame yourselves about this, it none of your faults. Namjoon, I know you are going to beat yourself up over this, but you don't need to. You are a great leader, I know that" he placed his hand on Namjoons shoulder. Namjoon just nodded.

"You guys are going to have a small break when Yoongi gets discharged, just so he can adjust back and then we will start practicing again, we have two months left until MAMA you you guys have plenty of time to rest"

After that, we all said our goodbyes and I decided to check on Yoongi.

I knocked on the door gently and waited for a response.

"Come in" Yoongi's voice was raspy but soft.

"Hey Yoongi, how are you doing?" He looked at me, I could see the pain in his eyes. I walked over to the chair that was beside his bed. His parents must have gotten their own separate room as Yoongi was now alone.

"I'm doing okay, I'm really tired tho" he said as he looked at me.

"I could go, if you want" I started to get up out of the chair, then I felt Yoongi's cold hand wrap around my arm.

"Stay, please" Yoongi's voice broke. I sat back down and he intertwined our hands together, smiling his signature gummy smile which made me smile.

He made room on his bed and patted the empty space on it, I got in beside him and pulled him into my embrace, his head snuggled into the crook of my neck.

After a few minutes, I could hear quiet snores coming from Yoongi. Soon after I felt myself drifting to sleep.

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Long time no see!!

I'm sorry I've been so inactive, I've been really sick lately but I'm getting better!

I can't believe that this has over 33k reads!!! I'm speechless!

Also I can't stop listening to Shadow and Black Swan! I'm so excited for this comeback and I already know it will be amazing!

-XOXO 😘💜