Broken || Yoonmin (Depressed Yoongi)

14

Yoongi's POV

I woke up with a banging headache, hearing the sound of my door practically being beaten down. I rubbed my eyes, remembering the events that occurred last night. I sat up from the couch and knocked over an empty whiskey bottle.

I stumbled over to the door and looked at the peephole. I could see Jimin, waiting for me to let him in. I hesitated, wondering if I should open the door for him or ignore him.

I went back to get my phone that was on the floor, looking at all of the missed calls and unseen messages. It's 8:37, which means dance practice now.

They don't care about you, don't be fooled by stupid messages.

There they were again, the stupid voices, but they are always right.

I jumped when I heard another round of knocks on my door and the sound of Jimin's voice.

"Yoongiiiiiiii, please open the door and let me in. We need to talk" I sighed then opened the door, noticing Jimin scrunching his nose a bit, definitely from the strong stench of alcohol.

"Sorry about this" I said quietly as I picked up the bottles and put them on the desk.

"It's fine, did you really drink that much though?" Jimin gave me a concerned look. I shook my head. And I sat on the couch next to him.

"Are you going to dance practice?" I asked him.

"No,it got canceled because our choreographer got sick and was meant to teach us more choreography for our performance" I nodded in response.

"So, what did you come over for Jimin?" He hesitated for a moment, then spoke up.

"We need to talk, about a lot of things..." fuck, do they know?

"Hyung, Jin told us, that you have cut yourself before. Why would you do that to yourself? You don't deserve that pain, we can get you some help, we need you, here" I stared at Jimin in surprise, then that subsided with panic.

"I do deserve that pain..." I whispered, kind of hoping Jimin didn't hear, but by the looks of his face, he definitely heard it.

"No you don't, nobody does, and definitely not you. We can get you some help, you just have to trust us and stop isolating yourself from the rest of us"

"Look Jimin, if you are going to give out and scold me, I'm not in the mood right now.." "No, hyung I was worried about you, we were all worried. You just left, we were looking for you after an hour cause we thought you just needed to calm down. I thought you did something stupid" I was shocked at what Jimin had just said.

Don't believe Jimin, he's lying.

I looked down at my hands, pinching the skin on my fingers

"Yoongi, I know that you are not okay, I know what you are going through. We can get you help, please just let us help"

"It's fine, I'm fine. Can you please just go now?" Jimin stared at me in disbelief.

"I know your lying, please just tell me what's wrong, then we can seriously get you some help" I just stood up from the couch and looked at him.

"I don't want your pity, alright? I want to be alone, please go"
"Not until you tell me what's going on with you!You are not fine, stop pretending!"

"FINE! IM NOT FUCKING OKAY! I HAVENT BEEN FOR A WHILE NOW! IM FUCKING BROKEN! AND YOU GUYS ONLY DO SOMETHING WHEN IT GETS THIS BAD??IF YOU REALLY CARED YOU WOULD HAVE KNOWN, BUT YOU DIDNT" I just snapped, I didn't mean to. Jimin was taken aback by me shouting at him.

"Fine, your right, it's my fault. Because of me, I didn't look out for you-" "Jimin, I didn't mean it, fuck, I'm sorry" I seen the hurt in his eyes, why did I lose it at him.

"No, it's my fault, you don't need to be sorry. I better go now" I just watched him leave, I didn't even fucking stop him, what the fuck have I done. I started pulling on my hair and covered my face with my hands.

Wow, now he really hates you now. None of this would have happened if you closed the fucking door behind you in the restaurant, you fuck everything up, you worthless piece of shit.

True, I am a worthless piece of shit.

I picked up the empty whiskey bottle and threw it at the wall. I heard the glass shatter all over the floor. I collapsed onto the ground and started sobbing uncontrollably, feeling my chest burn.

I started to hit my chest, hoping that the pain would stop. I closed my eyes wishing I could just disappear, forever.

Just end it, nobody would miss you now.

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Hey guyssssss!! I know it's been a while, I'm sorry about that, school is so stressful. I'm in my second last year before I go off to college so my school work is hectic. I promise to post a longer chapter next week since this one is kind of a filler one.

I have the rest of the storyline planned out for this and I hope it will be great! Sadly there will only be a few more chapters on this but there will be a lot happening! Thank you to those who love my work❤️❤️

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