Lines

Chapter 5

Sometime between the time when William entered my room and now, I had forgotten that I was talking to Connor.

Through everything that Will and I had been through, he still had his way of gaining all of my attention and as much as I tried to keep things between us in the past, I had known that he was still my weakness and there was only a matter of time before I cracked.

I debated whether or not I should answer the call and what the next steps would be if I did either. If I answered I'd need to figure out how to get away from Will or play it cool, but if I didn't answer, I wanted to have a reason.

I decided that it was probably best if I answered so that he didn't suspect anything. Right as I went to slide my screen to answer the call ended. I went to put my phone down and saw a second message from Connor.

You're probably sleep by now. Sweet dreams kiddo 💕

Wow. Here he was waiting for my reply and thinking I was sleep when I had somehow gotten involved in a full blown pre-sex session with a guy I used to mess with.

I was too paranoid at this point. Had I answered, who knew what would have happened.

As Will began to pick up where we left off, I suddenly came to my sense.

"We shouldn't do this" I said, placing my hands in front of his face and sitting up.

"Did I do something?" he asked.

"No it's just.. I'm already confused about us enough as it is. I really don't think that this would help."

"What's there to be confused about? I told you what I wanted. You may need time, but I know that this is what I want."

"This isn't just about you!" I yelled louder than I intended.

I could tell by the change in emotion on Will's face that he knew that he upset me and for some reason, I was starting to feel bad. He got up without saying anything, and started walking out of my room, grabbing his things along the way.

It was then that I realized that I was the reason he stayed in the first place. I was probably confusing him more than I was confused myself.

"Wait" I sighed, stopping him again while simultaneously covering my face. I was embarrassed, but I didn't want to end my night with him like this.

"Just come lay with me I continued, but nothing more."

I watched as a smile slowly grew across his face and he made his way back over to me.

I moved over on my bed, allowing a space for him, or as much space as he could get on this twin XL mattress.

He crawled over me and positioned his body around mine, wrapping his hands around my waist. I had honestly missed this feeling and before I knew it, I had closed my eyes and dozed off.

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"Good morning" I yawned, stretching out my arms, only to realize that it was just me.

That's weird.

All the liquor that I had drank tonight was catching up to me once again. I felt very lightheaded as I sat up and started to question if the events of last night had even happened or if they were just figments of my imagination.

As much as I wanted that to be true, I knew that I was just in denial about the entire thing, or at least I wanted to be. There was no denying that any of that had happened.

I reached to the other side of my bed to grab my phone. It was only a few minutes past 10 so it was still early. I scrolled through my notification bar which consisted of the usual; some Instagram notifications, a reminder to check my horoscope & a few emails. I also had a missed call from my mom, a text from Will and the text from Connor that I had never replied to.

Yikes.

I decided to open Will's message first. I don't know why, I just did. Hey. I left out to go freshen up before practice and didn't want to wake you. Coach still wants us to practice on weekends out of season so that we stay in shape and are can prepare for next season. It was cute that he still felt the need to explain himself to me.

I didn't really know how to respond so I just liked the message to let him know that I had seen it.

Now Connor. Good morning 🥰 I sent. I tried my best not to think of what I was doing when he sent his message last night because it only made me feel guilty.

I wasn't obligated not to, but whenever I start to like someone new or speak to one that I see a potential future with, I like to showcase my loyalty from the beginning because if I can't do it now, then how can I be expected to do it later.

The next thing I decided to do was check my Instagram notifications. It was still fairly early so my mom was probably still sleeping and I decided that I'd just call her later.

A few minutes later, I got a response from Connor.
Good morning 😏

The remainder of my day was spent in bed recovering and doing any little thing that I could to get time to pass. As long as the day took to complete, it was finally almost over.

2 more minutes I thought to myself.

I hurried to Instagram so that I could have my birthday post for myself ready. By the time I decided on a picture and a caption, there were only a few seconds left.

As soon as the clock hit 12, I posted my photo on Instagram. Almost immediately, the comments began to fill with happy Birthdays as well as my messages.

There was Jaron, a few other friends of mine and even people I hadn't spoken to in a while.

As I was replying to one of the birthday messages, a FaceTime call came through. Connor.

I instantly began smiling and making sure that I looked somewhat presentable before answering.

"Happy Birthday" he greeted before I could even say anything.

"Thank you" I replied with the biggest smile on my face. "Where are you?" I asked. I could tell that he was outside from his surroundings in the camera.

"Why don't you tell me" he replied, flipping the camera.

I was now looking at the backside of my dorm and I could tell that he was in the parking lot. And that's when I realized that the window in my room faced the parking lot. I peeked through the blinds, and sure enough there he was, standing next to a red Mercedes Benz which looked very new.

"When did you get here?" I asked in shock.

"Don't worry about it" he teased. "Just come outside, we're going for a ride."