Anxious Boy

18

Basically wake up to my alarm clock and get up after I turn it off. Then I get ready for the day and see the texts, missed calls on my phone.

"Damn it." I almost want to do something to hurt myself again. Sigh and eat a bit something, drink some juice as well. Then let Petunia out in the yard and after a while, she comes back in. 

"How's my boy?" Garrett texts and I sigh thinking of what to say.

"I'm not sure anymore. How's my man?" Want to know how he's doing and what he's thinking. 

"I'm awesome. Oh no. Do you need me to come over or do you want to come over?" He replies super quickly. 

"Oh no. I'll be fine. Besides I need to make another art video." Reply back just as quickly.

"If you need a break, it's perfectly fine. You don't need to over work yourself to the point of death." He reminds me as I sigh.

"I know you're right, but I'll be fine." Tell him and then go to the office only to realize that I can't record yet because I need more art supplies. Quickly walk to the store and buy more of what I need. Then go back home and organize all my things. Set up the camera thinking of who or what to draw. So I hit record once I think of who to draw and start my art project. It takes a while and by the time I'm done, it's super late and I'm not that hungry or thirsty. Turn on some music and drink a beer to calm my nerves.

"Hope you're doing alright." Garrett texts and I leave him on read because I don't know how to answer that. The truth is I'm not doing so well and I'm pretty sure people are suspecting that too. I can only lie until people realize that I'm lying and confront me about it. After I throw away the bottle, I turn off the music and get into Luke's bed once again. With a sigh, my head hits the pillow and I'm out just like that. Alarm clock wakes me up from a beautiful dream I barely remember, but both Garrett and Luke was in it. With a sigh, I get out of bed and get ready for the day. Eat and drink something before I start to edit the video.

"Alright, lets do this." Pump myself up for hours of editing. Sit and edit for a long time, then when I'm done, I upload it.

ART S1:E7

EUGENE LEE YANG!

Of course it blows up and people want The Try Guys responses. Honestly I can't wait for their input as well. 

"Beautiful art from my bae as always." Garrett texts which makes me smile and blush.

"You're so damn sweet." Now all I'm thinking is dirty thoughts.

"Bet you want yet another taste." It's like he's reading my mind or wants the same exact thing.

"Yes. I want to savor every flavor." Flirt right back, but he doesn't answer right away. Then  I remember he's busy with the squad.