Anxious Boy

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When I woke up in the hospital, I found out that I got shot twice and they shot the other guy five times. He was dead in seconds while they shot me in the side and stomach. After I left the hospital, Awsten had cleaned up his house and put in a new lock. Otto and Geoff told us they'd check up on him, but we can too as well. Luke and Garrett were worried, but had hope I'd make it. One of the bullets had barely missed an important organ in my body, so I could've died. Awsten has to work on an album with Otto and Geoff while Luke has to work on an album with Michael, Calum and Ashton. Garrett is mainly lazy at home listening to music, but has been really busy with Shane and the squad. That means I'm physically alone, but I also have Petunia.

"Here I go again." Feel like I'm gonna have a breakdown now. Sing and play a song, Linkin Park- Numb because I need some way to cope.

COVERS S1:E5

LINKIN PARK- NUMB!

Of course it blows up super quickly and the only other thing I can think of to do is do some art. Set up the camera, light some candles and start recording myself drawing. It takes me a few hours and I finish by 9 pm. Of course Luke went to bed early and I refuse to talk to people besides them of course. Crawl into bed with Luke, cuddle up to him and fall asleep. Thankfully he set an alarm for me in the morning because he's already gone. 

"Daily reminder that I love you babe, always and forever." He left a note for me.

"Aw. I love you too baby, always and forever." Text him and get ready for the day. Eat a small breakfast and take my coffee upstairs so I can edit and upload. It takes me a while because I don't really want to edit it, but it distracts me from my thoughts. Sigh when I'm done and I upload it. 

ART S1:E11

RONNIE RADKE!

It starts blowing up right away and Andy texts me. 

"Know what kind of happened recently, I'll give you some space, but we do need to keep working on our song." He reminds me not trying to push me too far.

"Yeah, of course I'm working on it because I need a distraction." Reply and shouldn't say that.

"Hope you're doing alright." He texts back.

"I'm doing alright, thanks for caring." That seemed a bit too dark. So I eat a late dinner and just sit randomly playing the guitar. Sigh and then drink a beer to calm the nerves, after I go to bed. My alarm wakes me up and I get ready for the day. 

"Waiting for Leo to cover BVB and FIR" A fan tweets and I sigh, smiling a bit.

"Maybe some time soon." Quote tweet and people are freaking out. No one knows Andy and I are working on a song together because it's a secret.