Anxious Boy

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Woke up at Cashton's and nearly cried remembering Luke and what he did. 

"Breakfast." Cal says from the doorway as I sigh and get up. We eat breakfast together and Cal cleans up.

"We're working on the album still." Ash tells me as they leave going to the studio. Then I remember I packed my razor blade. Could it really solve all of my problems? 

"I wanna fucking die and not come back at all. Don't bother saving me." Tweet out later at like 2 pm.

"Don't." People are tweeting back at me.

"Stay strong please." Others tweet at me.

"Am I really not that good enough? Will this make him happy?" Tweet out knowing I need help.

"Oh god no. It wouldn't make me happy." Luke quote tweets and it's too fucking late to stop me.

"You're too late. I'm in the bathroom bleeding from my wrist now." Yes I really tweet that out.

"Cal and Ash are rushing back home now." Luke informs me on Twitter. At that point, I put my phone down and start passing out remembering last time. 

"Leo, no!" Ash runs in terrified as Cal calls an ambulance. Pass out as I hear the sirens. A few hours later, wake up in the hospital, but I can sense something's about to go wrong. Then I slip into a coma and can't breathe on my own. Ash is here, but Cal went to wherever Luke is.

"Please make it. You're stronger than you think you are." Ash holds my hand with tears streaming down her cheeks. Oh no, not again. They all want me to keep fighting for my life. Am I even living for myself anymore? All I want to do is die, just give up already.

"Ash, I'm sorry." Hope he hears me and he jumps looking straight at me.

"Leo, please don't go." He begs me crying even more. God damn it, this boy is making me feel things now. Ash takes out his phone and texts Cal. Then suddenly something sends me to where Cal and Luke is.

"You literally made Leo feel like shit, feel useless and worthless. You made him feel like he deserved this even though he deserves so much better than this. Now he's in a coma not breathing on his own at the hospital because of a suicide attempt. You saw his tweets. Is that what you were going for? Do you really want to lose him?" Cal is angry.

"No. I didn't want this to happen. It's all my fault. I keep blaming it on the alcohol even though I know alcohol makes me overly sexual. I should've just went straight home after the studio and talk to Leo. Cal, I made a huge mistake and there's no way I can undo it. What do I do now?" Luke asks for his advice.

"Get him things he likes and apologize. Promise you'll never do it again and don't ever do it or else." Cal warns him.

"Or else what?" Luke is worried.

"I'll track you down and beat your ass!" Cal gets stern with him.