Anxious Boy

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Turned on some music and just rocked out when I woke up in the morning. Ate a little something and drank as well. 

"Should I do some more art or another cover?" There's 50/50 people are telling me. Nodded and sighed, then decided to do art since I don't have to talk or anything. So I set up the camera and think of who or what to draw. It takes me all day to do, but I get it done and then eat some dinner. 

"Hang out with us tomorrow." Garrett texts me as I sigh.

"I have an art video to edit and upload, but I'll try to make time for you guys." Reply super quickly.

"That's alright." He texts back and I feel bad. So of course I drink a beer and go to bed. Wake up early the next day and start editing the video. 

ART S1:E6

ALEX GASKARTH!

Of course all of my art videos blow up.

"Cover a song please." People are tweeting at me.

"I can hang out." Text Garrett happy that I finished early.

"Meet at my place." He texts back quickly and I walk there. We hug and kiss, then get into the car heading over to Jeffree's place.

"The boys are here!" Nate grins at us and gives us a group hug. Smile and blush because I swear he's crushing on me as well. We hang out as they record. After a while, we realize it's starting to get late and Garrett drops me off at home. But before he drives away we kiss. Wave as he drives home and I sigh as I crack open a beer and take a sip. Then I go to sleep since I'm super tired, but they can't hang tomorrow since they're all super busy. My alarm wakes me up and I turn it off, then get ready for the day. 

"Fuck." Say to myself since depression and anxiety are starting to set in again. See on Twitter which songs and artists they want me to cover. So I sigh and feel like giving up, but I make myself hold my head up and breathe. 

"What the hell." Tell myself as I start to get angry. Then I figure out exactly what to sing. Sing, Sleeping With Sirens- Empire To Ashes and edit after I play the instruments, then upload it waiting for the responses. 

COVERS S1:E2

SLEEPING WITH SIRENS- EMPIRE TO ASHES!

It blows up and people are loving it.

"Miss you so bad." Luke texts me and it almost makes me cry.

"Miss you so bad too." Bet he's sad.

"Congrats on you and Garrett. I'm so happy for the both of you." He replies to me and it makes me happy. Andy and I text since we're making a song together. We're keeping it on the low. We want it to be a surprise and shit like that. After a while, I feel the tears stream down my cheeks as I sip on a beer and jam out to music. 

"Wish I wasn't so alone and lonely right now." Petunia stares at me as I finish off the beer and throw the bottle away. Then I get into Luke's bed trying not to feel so damn alone. As soon as my head hits the pillow, I pass out and sleep all night long.