I was wandeating around the mansion, at 7:00 a.m. Nobody was awake, so I was sure to be quiet. They hadn't really changed anything, but the house was a little nicer, cleaner.
I stopped walking, outside a pink door. I listened for a moment, and my wolf ears twitched. Oh, yeah. I wanted wolf ears, so I got em. Heh. I also have a tail, but it's a cats.
Anyway, my ears twitch, and I focus. On the opposite side of the door, was sobbing. It wasn't regular sobbing like 'Ll, I accidentally hurt myself' sob. Oh no.
This was a broken sob. I know, because I've been there. I walked up to the door, and slowly twisted the handle, and opened the door. It creaked, and I stepped in.
I recognized the room as Sally's. Everything pink. Bed pink, walls pink, floor pink, rug pink.
The sobbing was muffled, and it sounded like she was trying to stop. She was curled in a ball on her bed, with her face burried in a pillow, and she was clutching the pillow for dear life. My heart cracked at the sight I saw next.
Sally's bed, was all bloody. Next to Sally on her bed, was a bloody razor..blood was dripping from her arm. Tears escaped my eyes, and I put a hand over my mouth. "Sally..?" I say, weakly. She freezes, and slowly takes the pillow away. It reveals a year stained face, puffy eyes, and messed up hair. Her eyes were bloodshot.
She tries not to make eye contact. I dash over, pick up the razor, and destroy it. I put a hand on her shoulder, and she freezes. She takes the pillow away and looks at me. Her eyes were bloodshot, and puffy from crying so hard. I give her a sympathetic look. "Sally...? Why?" I ask, pleasingly, sitting next to her, starting to heal her cuts.
She looks down. "I'm sorry....while you were away everything was chaotic, and we would fight a lot. Lately, Ben has been taking his anger out on me..." my eyes harden. "Did he hurt you?" I demanded.
She shook her head. "Mommy...I'm sorry....I didn't know how to deal with the pain...Lately I've been getting mood swings..."
"How long?"
"Huh?"
"How long have you been...cutting?"
She doesn't speak. I look at her for a moment, then slowly lift up my right sleeve, and flip my arm, showing my wrist. She gasps.
There are scars, running from the top of my wrist, to all the way up to my shoulder. Some of them are pretty old, some of them are recent. Five cuts that haven't healed yet decorate my wrist, where there were no cuts before.
She stares at them for a moment, then looks up at me, in shock. I stare at my wrist, with regret. I speak, with sorrow.
"It doesn't help..it never helps. It just distracts you from the pain on the inside. You think that it's good, because it's the only pain you can control..." I look at her. "Please, never do it again. Promise me. It isn't worth it." She looks away. "Promise me, Sally."
"I...I promise.." she says, then hugs me. I hug her, tightly. I was very surprised, worried, scared, and frantic. Also, mad, at BEN. He shouldn't take his anger out on Sally. She's only 13.
I look down at her wrist. The blood is gone, and the cuts are slowly fading to scars. She looks at me, sadly. "Its okay, we all hurt some days."
"Mom..." she says. I look at her, expectantly. She hesitates, but speaks, "can you sing for me..?" I smile at her. "What song?"
"Shatter Me, by Lindsay Stirling." I came again. "I love that song." I say. She hugs me again.
I take a deep breath. She puts on the violin music, with no words.
"I pirouette in the dark
I see the stars through me
Tired mechanical heart
Beats til the song disappears,
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me!
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
If only the clockworks could speak
I wouldn't be so alone..
We burn every magnet and spring
And spiral into the unknown..
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me!
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
(Only)
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me!
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me.."
I end in a whisper, and by the time in done, she is looking up at me, in shock. I grin at her. "Didnt know I could sing, did ya?"
"No, I did not." Our heAds whip to the door. Standing in the doorway is Slender. I blush and look away. I only intended for Sally to hear that.
"You werent supposed to hear that.." I whisper. He approaches us. "You are a great singer." He comments. I nod, and look down.
I grin. "I know."
