Rejection's Chains

~*15*~ The pain of losing a mate you never loved...

The feeling of waking up again in my room felt weird it felt as if all those few months where like a simple dream, but sadly I had realized none of that was really true and that in fact it wasn't all a dream...

I WAS kidnapped...
I WAS raped by my own mate ...
And I really couldn't do anything to fix that...

Once I had woken up I found myself back in Alpha Andreo's pack house, back in my old room in usual days I would have been happy and jumping in joy but... right now I can't even get up the pain just doesn't seem to go...

The pain of losing someone that I never loved... hated in fact, hated with all my heart...

I put my hand on the bedside table and pushed myself up into a sitting position, just that simple movement made me yelp in pain.

I was about to try and drag myself out of bed but then I heard knocking.

My eyes looked towards the door to find Laura's little head poking out trying to find me in the room.

"Laura..." I said quietly with a voice that sounded like a old man I really haven't talked in a while,

She gave me a warm smile and ran towards me well you could say honestly it was more like a her waddling.

She was practically 'glowing' I guess I mean that's what you say to pregnant women usually. Her belly was huge it looked like she had more then one creature in there.

"Are you ok? Oh my god you don't even know how much I've missed you and how the news of your Kidnapping nearly sent me into labor" She started to say more things but I honestly spaced out,

Laura looked at me and stopped talking,

"You okay?" She asked with a slight crack of the voice sounding as if she was about to cry as she realized I had said nothing.

I looked at her worried face and with that tears streamed down my face I never knew myself I was holding these tears in.

Laura hugged me and started patting my back as cried,

"It's ok things will get better they really will" She said while stroking my hair breaking into tears herself,

"What am I going to do!?" I said with a broken voice,

Silence...

"HE MARKED ME LAURA HE MARKED ME AND I COULD DO NOTHING TO STOP HIM"

I cried on her shoulder while remembering all that had happened down to him stroking my face to him marking me I could not forget a thing it was carved into my mind I could not forget anything.

"It's going to get better I promise I won't let anyone hurt you anymore I'll keep you here with me"

As soon as she said those words I remembered my saviors Leon and his pack...

"Laura wheres Leon?" I asked her

"Oh Leon? He's with Andreo...why?" She asked

"I need to thank him he saved me" I was about to get up before Laura pushes me back on the bed,

"If you want to thank him I'll bring him here, you won't be moving at all for at least a week" she said scolding me,

I nodded at her,

1 week later...

I got up from bed as usual with constant memories of what happened I tried not thinking about it I really have I tried distracting myself but every time I do I end up spacing out and thinking about it again, his smile I can't forget it his menacing smile...
It's vivid in my mind as if he's going to come and devour me whole.

I walked into the bathroom stripped off my clothes with a slouched back and walked into the shower. I let the cold water fall on me in attempt to drain away these memories but they never left I stayed there until my teeth chattered in the cold but even then they wouldn't go I felt like bashing my head against the wall until I would forget.

I can't enjoy the things I used to anymore, the smallest things scare me now even the turning of the door knob it feels as if Max will be behind that door and take me back to that dark, dark place.

I wrapped a towel around me and walked back into my room I let my hair drip into the floor making it all wet usually I would have wiped the floor straight away and dried my hair since I hate making my clothes wet but now I can't seem to care, my wolf won't talk to me and my heart feels empty as if it's lost something.

Why did the Moon goddess have to be so cruel why did she have to make my fate like this why couldn't I be happy like the normal female wolves WHY!?

I laid down on my bed with only a robe covering my body, my hair continued to drip on the soft fabric making it completely wet.
I wanted to cry again like I did with Laura but I couldn't my tears wouldn't fall I wanted to cry it out like a normal girl but I couldn't.

I stayed there for a while, stared blankly at the pillow beside me.

The sound of the door creaking open made me freeze on the spot I was once again scared that it was Max back to get me...

"Jess?" I heard Laura's soft voice trying to soothe me,

I quickly got up trying to smile,

She was about to hug me but then water suddenly gushed down to the floor...

Her water broke, I quickly jolted up forgetting everything...

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Ok... so Laura's water broke Jess is still obviously effected by all the shit that happened to her but for this exact time she will have to try forget and help her friend although I don't completely know how this is going to work let's just see what happens together! 😊