Chapter 43- Fridays

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Friday Night

I get dressed into a black tube top and some ripped jeans.

It was nice outside.

It was golden hour, hella pretty outside.

I grab my purse and I walk to Adi's house.

I open the door to see Tal, Adi, Mike, Anthony, and everyone.

Adi walks up to me.

Me-"Hey.

Adi-"Hey"

We walk and me and Adi sit on the couch with our friends.

I was having a fun time with everyone.

I'm lucky to have such amazing people in my life.

Soon after laughing and talking for a bit everyone split off.

All the guys were outside and the girls were sitting around the living room.

I walk out of the house and sit on Adi's front porch.

It was nice, quiet.

I loook up in the sky to see the stars.

It was beautiful.

I heard the door open. I assumed it was Adi.

Me-"Adi the stars are so nice,"

I turn and my smile leaves my face.

Tal-"Bailey, we need to talk."

I get up.

Me-"I gave you that chance. You were mad at me for no reason."

Tal-"I was not mad at you, I was mad at myself, I felt guilty for something but I was able to settle down on my own."

Me-"I did not deserve that."

Tal-"I know, I am sorry."

Me-"Bye Tal. We are done here."

Tal-"Bailey please stop."

Me-"Now look whos bossy."

Tal looks at me,

Tal-"Please forgive me. I was an idiot."

Me-'Ye think."

I walk up to Tal.

Me-"You can't act one way and then all of the sudden act like to hate me. Its not gonna be like that ever. I'm guilty of giving people more chances than they deserve but when I'm done, I'm done. I'm done here."

Tal-" This is not fair. You have said some pretty mean stuff and I have forgiven you."

Me-"Don't compare this to me. What about all the years you insulted me, bullied me. Do you have any idea how that made me feel. I always wondered if there was something wrong with me that would give you a fucking reason to do that."

Tal-"There was no reason."

Me-"Then why say that stuff to me. Be so mean."

Tal-"I thought I was joking. I did not know you were affected by it. You never seemed bothered by it."

Me-"Your joking right? I would cry after you would say some things that were just so... awful."

Tal-"Bailey... I did not know that. "

Me-"Thats why Adi was going to almost beat you up. He found out I was crying one day your insults got so bad and since that day he was more protective of me."

Tal-"I am so sorry. You should have just let him beat me up, why stop him when you did that day?"

I did not know he remembered that.

Me-"I don't know, I had every reason to hate you but... Tal, I can never hate you and I don't know why."

Tal looked at me.

Me-"You seemed to always act like we were cool then you act like you hated me and that I am a peice of crap."

Tal-"Bailey you are not. I have never hate you. I never will hate you. Your one of the most important people in my life."

I looked at Tal.

Me-"You really think that?"

Tal-"Yes I do."

Me-"Then act like it."

I turn and walk away.

I go back in the party and go to the back patio.

I sit next to Cam.

Cam-"I just got off the phone. I am leaving in 2 days for another small gig."

Me-"So soon."

I look down. This night was supposed to be about Cam coming back but...

It did not feel that way.

Cam-"Hey, I will be back so soon."

I nod and smile.

Cam puts his arm around me.

I look down.

Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations. Don't over-analyze your relationships. Stop playing games. A growing relationship can only be nurtured by genuineness.

I was lying to Cam when I would tell him I was ok with him leaving again.

I was not.

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