Never Stop Dreaming // Tal Fishman

Chapter 20- Think We Know

I don't want to spend the rest of my summer being confused. I need to set myself on a one way lane.  I don't want to get mixed signals from Cam. 

I don't want to spend my time making mistakes, I want to be able to make new friends. Enjoy the ones I have now. 

See where things go with Cam.

So this starts starts with me putting my confusion with Tal behind me.

  The only thing a person can ever really do is keep moving forward. Take that big leap forward without hesitation, without once looking back. Simply forget the past and forge toward the future.

  You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces of the floor and move on. 

 You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

  There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life.  

One way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure. Move forward. Be happy.

So that is exactly what I did.

I lived up to what I wanted to do.

I planned the best summer before senior year.

Some time has passed and I have not talked to Tal in a long time. 

We always have out birthday party with friends on the 10th. Then on the 11th celebrate with Adi's family then on the 12th celebrate with my family.

 We have a friend get together planned at Adi's.

Its gonna be a hella lit party.

For our birthday, the party itself is gonna start at 4 and go pretty late.

Its 3:40pm and I want to meet Adi a bit earlier so we can exhange our gifts.

We have been doing that since we were 5.

The outfit I am wearing are theese cute black flowy pants with a gold sparkly bandeau and cute black wedges.

My hair was in a basic style top knot,

I grab my purse from my night stand and I rush down the stairs.

I leave out my front door also grabbing Adi's gift.

I walk over to Adi's house and open the door.

Adi greets me in a bear hug and spins me around.

Adi-" Hey you."

Me-" We're turning 18, ahhhhhhh"

I hug him.

Adi-" Lets go to the couch I have your gift."

Me-" I have yours."

We sit on the couch and we exchange gifts,

Adi gives me this small pink gift bag with a card.

Adi-" Sorry, I am a bad gift giver..."

Me-" are you kidding I am so bad..."

We laugh.

I open the card to read this poem.

I read it aloud.

Me-"

The day I met you

I found a friend -
And a friendship that
I pray will never end.

Your smile - so sweet
And so bright -
Kept me going
When day was as dark as night.

You never ever judged me,
You understood my sorrow.
Then you told me it needn't be that way
And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow.

You were always there for me,
I knew I could count on you.
You gave me advice and encouragement
Whenever I didn't know what to do.

You helped me learn to love myself
You made life seem so good.
You said I can do anything I put my mind to
And suddenly I knew I could.

There were times when we didn't see eye to eye
And there were days when both of us cried.
But even so we made it through:
Our friendship will not die.

Circumstances have pulled us apart,
We are separated by many miles.
Truly, the only thing that keeps me going
Is my treasured memory of your smile.

This friendship we share
Is so precious to me,
I hope it grows and flourishes
And lasts unto infinity.

You are so extra-special to me
And so this to you I really must tell:
You are my one true friend,
My Guardian Angel.

Our friendship is one-in-a-million
So let's hold on to it and each other.
We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away
For there will never be another.

I love you.
I will always love you.  "

I have tears in my eyes.

Me-" Adi..." I wipe a tear from my eye." I love you so much. This is beautiful"

I hug him.

Adi-" Open your gift." he says softly smiling.

I open the pink bag to see a ring box.

I open it to see a beautiful silver ring. I look and its engraved. 

I read what it says.

Me-" You are amazing. Remember that"

I hug Adi again.

Adi-" Like it?"

Me-" I love it. You make me freaking cry. I ruined my makeup."

We both laugh.

I hand Adi the card I made him.

Adi reads the card.

Adi-" When tears fell from my eyes,  you were there to brush them away.When I was lost in confusion, you were there to say that everything would be okay.When I stood before you falling apart,you were there to lend your heart.When I felt like no one could understand,you were there to take my hand.When no one else was left to care, you were there"

Adi has tears in his eyes.

Adi-" I am always here remember that."

Me-" I know and I owe you everything for that."

I hand him a box.

He opens it to see a watch.

Adi-" This is a hella nice watch."

He turns it around to see the engraving.

He reads it.

Adi-" Good things in life are better with you"

Adi looks at me.

Adi-" Your going to make me cry."

He hugs me.

I chuckle.

Me-" You like it?'

Adi-" Yes I love it thank you so much."

I come out out the hug and I smile adi.

Me-" Ready for the party?"

Adi nods his head and we both laugh.