Never Stop Dreaming // Tal Fishman

Chapter 50- Strings

Its the next day and its around noon.

I hear a knock at my door.

Cam was really leaving.

I grab my keys.

I open the door and Cam comes inside.

Cam-"You don't need to drive me. I did not want to have a cliche airport goodbye."

I laugh.

Cam smiles.

I put my keys on the counter.

Cam-" I want to tell you that I am one call away. If you need anything..."

Me-"I know Cam. The past 4 months has been lots of ups and downs. I guess its over now. "

Cam-"We seemed to be more functional as friends and I hope we can go back to that."

Me-"Of course. It changes things. But... we can figure it out. We are better as friends."

Cam-"Your one of the most important people in my life. "

He puts his hand on my cheek.

Cam-"Bye,"

Me-"Bye."

I punch his shoulder.

Me-"Cmon go. "

He laughs and walks to his uber.

He gets in it and does not look back.

I watch it leave.

It was over.

I walk back inside my house and I shut the door and collapse on the floor.

I cry.

Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your past, but not a part of your future.

Accept yourself, love yourself, and keep moving forward. If you want to fly, you have to give up what weighs you down.

One of the best times for figuring out who you are & what you really want out of life? Right after a break-up.

I need to learn what I want in life.

I believe everything happens for a reason.

Him moving away and us breaking up was bond to happen.

I am going to move forward and learn who I want to become.

Some time goes by and I sit on my couch.

I hear a knock at my door.

I open it to see Adi.

Adi-"Bailey?"

I look at him.

Adi looks at  me.

Adi-" Your eyes are red... Cam said goodbye to everyone yesterday. I wanted to check on you."

Me-"Come in."

He walks in and we sit on my couch.

Adi-"What happened between you guys."

Me-"He asked me to go with him. I said no but he then decided not to just to be with me here. I couldn't stand the thought of him just giving up on his dream to be with me. I let him... I let him go. We are over. But... I know he will be happy."

Adi-"Bailey..."

He puts my hand on my thigh.

Adi-"Emily and I ended things, We decided to take a break for a while. We need time to ourselves for now."

Me-"I'm sorry Adi."

I put my hand over Adi's.

Adi-"We both don't have good luck in relationships."

We both crack a smile.

We look at eachother.

I look down.

I feel my eyes start to tear up.

Adi sees.

He embraces me.

I snuggle into him.

I look up at Adi and he looks at me.

I close my eyes.

He kisses my forehead.

He puts his head on my head.

Adi-"I'm here."

I come up from the side hug.

Me-"It happened so fast. It hard to believe he is really gone."

Adi-"Same with me. Emily and I talked over the phone. From there I could not believe it."

I look at Adi,

Me-"I also think now that we were trying so hard to get it to work out on both our sides.... but in the end I think both of us knew our futures were not compatible with one another."

Adi-"I get that. "

Me-"It was bound to happen eventually. We both were better off as friends."

Adi puts his hand  on my thigh.

I look down.

I feel Adi's hand put my hair behind my ear.

I continue to look down.

I turn to Adi to see him look at me.

His face was close to mine.

Thats when he began to lean in.

He kisses me, I kiss him back.

He comes out of the kiss.

I look at him.

He looks at me.

Me-"Adi?"

He looks down.

I look down.

He really did just kiss me.

I look at Adi.

I hold his hand.

He looks at be confused.

I put my head on his shoulder.

He puts his arm around me,

To my surprise I thought if Adi were to ever kiss me I would feel different then I do.

The thing is it did not feel wrong or right.