Rocking a Doctor's Heart

Chapter 36

Warning: Mature content ahead ;)

Mariing titig ang ginawad sa akin ni Dame nang lumabas na ng condo unit niya ang abogado. Hindi pa man nag-iinit ang pang-upo namin sa sofa sa living area ay napagdesisyunan kong huwag ng mag demanda.

Patuloy ang paggalaw ng panga ng aking kaharap at tila binibigyan niya pa ako ng pagkakataon para magpaliwanag kung bakit ganoon ang aking desisyon.

"I don't want another headache. All I want is peace of mind," I said and rested my back on the couch. Naisip ko lang kung magdedemanda pa ako ay madami pang proseso ang pagdadaanan. And I wonder until when will I stay here with him if I will file a case with his and his lawyer's help.

Hindi ko alam kung ano bang estado namin at humantong nga kami na magkasama dito. And what did he say to my mother last night?

Hindi naman siguro pwedeng manatili ako dito hanggang matapos ang kaso diba? O kahit bukas at sa makalawa, habang narito pa ako sa bansa. If I am not staying in Dad's mansion-- wait, speaking of Dad...

"Don't tell Dad,"I said na lalong ikinadilim ng kanyang hitura. His lips shut tightly at lalo ko lang yata siyang ginalit.

"I can't promise you that. I will be filing a TRO--"

"No. No need for that. That would just make this issue big. It's e-enough that someone other than me knows what they have done...I guess. H-he would not dare do it again," hindi ako makatingin sa kanya habang sinasabi ito. 

His eyes are extremely dark that I have to hold on to both knees to stop them from trembling. My heartbeat is crazy now that I realized he has knew the things I hid from him even before I flew away to New York. Hindi ko alam pero mas nakakatakot yata ang isipin ang kanyang iniisip sa oras na ito matapos ang lahat -lahat. His thoughts last night when he decided to bring me here in his place and now that we are here facing each other after all the shits.

I heaved a deep sigh. I think I don't want to know.

"Thank you for letting me stay but I have to go back to the hotel. Hindi rin naman ako mananatili ng matagal supposedly sa bahay--"

When he groaned harshly before standing up ay natutop ko na lang ang aking bibig. Marahas niyang ginulo ang buhok at tumingala na tila ubos na ang pasensiya. And I think this was the most restless I have seen him since I knew him. Na para bang ang dami niyang gustong sabihin pero hindi niya masabi-sabi. Ang dami niyang gustong gawin na hindi niya magawa-gawa.

"You have never really taken this seriously. I should have known..." he utters fast before sighing so heavily facing me. "Tell me..."

Para akong pusang nahuli ng aso na napapaatras sa upuan dahil sa klase ng tingin niya. Sa diin ng boses niya ay para akong sasalang sa isang interogasyon sa kasalanan na matagal bago niya nalaman.

"Tell me your plans. After you were almost...almost.." his curses went out of the line but I did not have the chance to butt in.

"...tell me what you are thinking at this moment. Because honestly, I don't get you. I want to kill that fucking bastard for what he has done but here you are not giving a damn... I can't read you so please tell me what are your plans after all that has happened."

Nanatili akong nakamaang sa kanyang sinabi pero I tried to at least say something. "I told you... I just need peace of m--"

"Fucking peace of mind, Jade Olivia! Can you also give me mine?"

Napatayo ako sa gulat. Yes, he is angry but... "What do you mean? Ako? Bakit ako?"

"You doing nothing is a pain in the ass!"