The Better Me

Chapter 8 | Pretentious Feelings

I felt at ease for the first time in a while.

No distractions, no heavy feelings, no confusion and certainly no reminders about my past. My mind was clear and thankfully, I was able to break free from whatever trance I had been captivated in.

A few days with no call, no text and no unplanned meetings from him was what I needed to finally be far from him, both mentally and physically.

Honestly, it wasn't easy to forget all about him in an instant. Despite knowing him for less than two weeks, Alessio made my heart already race with those qualities you'd rarely find in a man like him, his way of treating people, his easy going attitude, his mature words, his annoying persistence and not to mention the stupendous smile he always had on his face.

But I was good now.

Sometimes I'd wonder how our relationship would have turned out if there was no other girl in his life.

With that thought, the feeling of that familiar strange heaviness emerged, so I quickly muttered under my breath. "I am good now"

The sounds of pots clanking and knocking together, thankfully stopped my current train of thoughts.

Looking up from where I was lain on the sofa, my eyes caught Kina's familiar figure in the kitchen. She was in her usual sweatpants and shirt, rapidly bringing out ingredients for....I guess for a meal she was about to prepare.

Leaving her to it, I turned my attention back on the sketch pad sitting on my laps.

I was working on finishing a design I had begun yesterday before getting swept away by my inner thoughts, but till today, no inspiration whatsoever had come.

A sigh escaped from me in total defeat.

It was frustrating not to have an idea of what to draw, especially when the Fashion House could call at anytime. They were already tired of the usual blouse and bottoms I had been submitting to them and Mrs Redmoth said they wanted something new, but what?

"I'm thinking about getting a dog"

One moment, my mind was thinking about the different colourful vary of dresses I could design and the next, the most revolting image crossed my mind.

Gross salivating furry smelling creatures filled my thoughts and the expression that crossed my face could as well have been that of disgust.

Dogs, did I really just hear that?

Turning to Kina, I immediately objected to the idea.

"You are not taking any dogs"

She stood in the kitchen, staring at me with challenging eyes. "And why is that?" She questioned, "Everyone likes dogs, you'd be without heart if you didn't"

Dogs were amicable creatures that's for sure but I never really had the heart to like one or any other animal in general.

"We agreed on the no dog policy before we decided to share an apartment, this is a breach of contract Kina"

Kina laughed at my statement, with hazel orbs tingling in mischief, and that's when I knew that she was just playing with me.

"I hate you"

She shrugged her shoulders, "Calm your tits girl, I just said it to gain your attention"

"What do you mean?"

Dropping the spatula she had on her hand, Kina turned to me, with an expression I knew too well. "You were so deep in your thoughts, that I called you twice and you didn't even hear me"