I Can't Live Without You (Sixth book of the Finnick and Annie series)

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

Annie's POV

My god he's such a jerk! He knows I didn't even mean that stuff, that my emotions are all out of whack thanks to the little baby. I know he doesn't want to leave but I just blew up and I thought he would understand that. But he is under stress too, so I guess it's partially him being dramatic. But my excuse is better.

I knock on the door he's in. He opens it.

"I'm sorry," we both say at once and smile lightly.

"I was being dramatic," he says.

"And my stupid emotions went out of my whack. Obviously, I mean, I'm never jealous like that."

"Okay, let's forget that." He says, smiling.

"Forget what?" I smile back.

"I love you Annie, and I hate when we disagree, and sometimes I even hate that I love you more than my ego."

I laugh at this, "Well I must be your prized possession if I mean more to Finnick Odair than his ego."

"You are, but you already knew that." He says, smiling.

"You have to be the best person I have ever met, even though you screw up somehow on a daily basis." He laughs and kisses me.

"I love you more than anything. Just don't tell that to our kids,"

"As long as you don't tell them that I love you more than anything."

He shakes his head, "You're not supposed to love me more than them."

"Finn, can we ever control how much we love someone?" He shakes his head. "I can't control my love for you that only expands everyday." He holds me close. "And, I hope you understand, you don't even have to agree, or think I'm right, but that's why I can't let her take you. Because even though it's wrong of me to say this as a mother of two children, almost three, that I love with everything I have, you are my heart and soul and my entire fragile world revolves around you and I can't lose that."

"Annie, why do you have to go and make this so hard for me? Because that is honestly how you have made me feel since the day you stepped into my life."

I have tears filling my eyes but that's not the baby, that's me. My feelings for this one person, this perfect and imperfect and beautiful and only my Finnick. My feelings. Mine. Not the baby messing with my emotions.

"Baby?" He asks.

I shake my head. "Not the baby, just me. Just my feelings."

"I can't stand the thought of leaving you,"

"I can't stand the thought of you leaving me," He doesn't say anything. "So please don't."

"You know I have to,"

I nod slightly. "I know. I know what I should choose, I know the decision that makes the most sense, I know what is best for us and what will work the best, most likely. I know that all in my mind. But what I know in here," I point to my heart. "Is that this will stop working, if I don't have this." And I point to his.

"But Annie, you already have it. It's already yours. You already stole it like, twenty years ago, or something." I laugh. "Seriously, you've had it for a long time. It's been yours since... since the minute I kissed you in the sixth grade. That's how long it's been yours, and only yours. And no matter what Alexa can do to me, it will never change because my heart is yours and no one could ever steal it from you. Because it's not an object, it's a feeling, a sense of devotion and totally, completely, one hundred percent yours."