okay so this will be a reasons why i want to be skinny. after writing it here i will write it down on paper and keep it with me so whenever i feel like i need to eat i can look at it.
• So I can fit into small spaces perfectly without squishing against the walls
• So that girls at school will ask me what my secret is, only to have me reply with, “clean eating and exercise :)”
• To be the approachable, graceful, dainty girl that everyone wants to be friends with. I want to be small and as kind as can be.
• So that my mom will never be able to say “you’re too big to wear that kind of thing” again.
• To have people whisper about how thin and gorgeous I am, instead of how ugly and annoying I am.
• To look absolutely adorable in any clothing I wish. Even my old clothes that‘ll be 4 sizes too big will look cute and oversized on me.
• To be able to cosplay any character without feeling too big to properly “be” them.
• To be able to work out in public without feeling like, quite literally, the elephant in the room.
• So that boys will actually want to be with me, and I’ll politely decline their offers, because I already have someone who has loved me at every stage of my journey.
• So new people I meet will wonder if I’ve always looked like this, and if I was blessed with amazing genes.
• So at concerts I will look like I don’t belong there, dressed in cute, innocent clothes, perched on a picnic blanket and jumping every time there is a noise louder than usual.
• To have people worry about me when I lose more weight, instead of congratulate me.
• To be picked up and carried around with ease because I’m essentially weightless.
• So that when there is no more room in the car somebody says, “it’s okay, you can sit in my lap because you’re so light.”
• To look adorable in my glasses, like a shy, introverted bookworm, instead of a pig with sight problems.
• To walk effortlessly and gracefully down the school halls, but with petite, frail legs I’ll find it hard to keep up with my friends when they walk.
• To look like a sleepy angel in any pajamas or anything of the like.
• To have people be surprised when they see me eating, to hear them say, “wow, you really do eat sometimes!”
• So that my grandma gets worried about me and tries to have me eat all sorts of foods and pastries, in which i will politely decline because “i’m already soooo full from the breakfast you made earlier.”
• To be able to eat normally on occasion, to be able to go out with friends without staring at the online menu for hours beforehand.
• To look dainty and cute in any swimsuit during the summer, instead of a beached whale.
• To get into certain events for free because i’m small enough to be a child.
• So that when they have to manage to squeeze another person onto a carnival ride, my seat is always the one they’ll pick, because there’ll be so much extra room.
• To be able to look pretty and innocent in pastel lolita clothing, but also badass and gorgeous in gothic clothing.
• To be so cold during the winter that my friends feel obligated to try and warm me up by hugging me or rubbing my hands.
