Forever And Ever.

24

Noel looked at me and sighed. He had just gotten off the phone in a different room and had proceeded to come back in to me. I was curled up on a sofa in the livingroom part of our hotel room, reading Stephen King's IT. 
"We need to talk" he says, so I put my pink bookmark with my name on it in purple writing in the book and place  it on the table.

"What about?" I smile and pick up my hot chocolate i had made about ten minutes previous, it did have marshmallows and cream on but they had gone all melted by now into a frothy sludge ontop. I didnt mind though.

"Last night, what happened?" He asks.

I chuckle "I went upstairs to give something to guigsy, then realised that he wasnt there so I posted it. Then I went up to the roof and bumped into Liam, who came down and spoke to me for a bit but I rudely fell asleep on him and woke up to arguing, why?".

"What did you give to guigs?" He questions.

"Thats between me and him, I am allowed to have my privacy y'know, whats wrong with you?".

"What time was it?" He asks.

"Whats with all the questions? I dont fuckin' know maybe eleven. How about I quiz you for a change? Who was that on the phone Noel? Why did you leave the room to take the call?".

"It wasnt anyone Important, im gonna go ask him myself considerin' you wont talk" he replies and throws on his denim jacket. Why he was wearing a denim jacket in the middle of july i'll never know. I throw my hot chocolate down on the table to follow him but I do it a bit too hard causing it to splash all over the table and all over my book. He turns around, looks at the mess, then to me and then the mess again. "Oh for fucks sakes Jess, now look what yer done".

"I wanna know what the big fuckin' rush is about" I reply "it werent nothin' important I were just returnin' summat to him".

"The big rush, is that Rkids claimin' to have found yer tryna jump off the fucking roof last night and now yer saying you dont remember it" he says "so i'm retracin' yer cracked out steps so I can get answers considerin' yer wont give me none".

"I do remember" I mutter "i forgot to take my meds, i thought I saw Alice and Sunny tellin me to do it. Well Alice was, Sunny was drinking a cocktail and tryna stop me. Liam saved my fuckin' life. I dont even know what he was doing up there but I swear what I was returning to guigs has got nothin' to do with it".

"Yer goin' back to London" he says with a look that was almost threatening in his eyes "tonight. Thats what the phone call was. Yer gonna go back to london and stay with Lyla until I get back from tour ok, yer gonna sort yer fuckin' bullshit out and then we're gonna have elizabeth's first birthday at supernova's and everything is going back to normal ok?".

"Ok?" I question "no im not fuckin' ok, yer cant just send me off when yer feel like it".

"Yeah and I cant just babysit yer when you fucking feel like it to, so go to Rkid and Lyla's, fix yerself and have done with it alright? Because if you dont, I'm sorry Jessica but we just cant keep living like this. I love yer but its gotta stop" he retorts.

I felt the urge to cry all of a sudden. "I dont wanna leave you Noel".

"I know, but you gotta, come on I'll help you pack, your car comes in an hour" he replies.

So thats exactly what happened. Noel and Guigs walked me down to the car when it came. I said goodbye to Guigsy first. He hugged me so tight.
"I'm gonna miss you, Jess, thanks for not making a big scene about the tape, i'm sorry" he whispers in my ear quickly.

"You've got nothing to be sorry about" I whisper back and pull away from him "I'm gonna miss you so much too, are yer comin to our Eliza's first?".

"Of course I am" he smiles.

I move over to noel and give him a kiss and then a long but almost meaningless hug, he must really be mad at me, or himself. "Call me every day yeah?" I ask him.

"Of course, If i cant someone will" he smiles.

"I love you" I kiss him again and go to get in the car.

"I love you too Jess" he replies.

"Forever?" I ask.

He takes a moment. "Just get in the car jess, yer gonna be late" he replies hastily. I get in the car and it starts moving straight away so I just roll the window down and wave them off at the same time. Noel blows me a kiss just as he goes out of sight.
Why didnt he say it? He always says it back. It hurt for him to just not do it like that.
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I walked up the path to Lyla and Paul's house, still questioning it, about four and a half hours later (also known as 5:30pm, Dinner time).
I rang the doorbell and waited.
"Oh my" she says opening the door "look at you, you're lookin' good girl, i'm digging the haircut".

I hug her. "Thanks, Lyla, I'm digging the... new tattoo" I reply. She had gotten a tattoo of the David Bowie lightning bolt on her left collarbone near where her shoulder meets her arm.

"Thanks" she chuckles "I lost a bet, guess who to".

"What was it?".

"Just a football related thing" she chuckles, come on, I'll show you your room and stuff. I'll take that too" she takes my suitcase off of me and leads me into the house.

"Where's Paul?" I ask.

"Oh, hes just gone down the chippy to get dinner, took Eliza with him, they shouldn't be long" she replies as we go up the stairs and to the spare room. It was purple and white themed, I quite liked it. "See we moved the travel cot in here for you, thought you might like it that way, but she has a proper one in our room".

"Thank you, Lyla, yer been ever so good to us" I smile.

"Yeah well, whats family for?" She replies "i'll let you unpack and get settled come down for some food yeah?".

"Yeah sure, see yer soon" I reply and she leaves the room, closing the door behind her.
I flop back on the bed and stare at the ceiling for a second.
Home sweet home, I guess?
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A/N: what is up peeps. It's my birthday and I had already writ this but i didnt like it so i re-writ it today. 19 whoop whoop.
Sorry its so short its more of a filler than anything else.
Stay cool.
- Paige X