Forever And Ever.

12

I sat with my back against the wall and stared at the wall opposite. It was an awful green colour. There was a metal toilet/sink combi in the corner and a raised part of the other wall with a blue matress on and a scratchy woolen blanket. A window with bars on it and a steel door. The lights were harsh against my eyes and prevented me getting any sleep. A single tear rolled down my cheek. I had well and truly given up. "You cant keep me in here forever" I said out loud to myself "at least tell me, my Liz is alright, I cant sleep without knowin' she's alrght".

The police officer opens the hatch of the door an sighs "I'm not supposed to tell you, Mrs. Gallagher, but your daughter has been placed into the care of a Mr. Jones after your Brother-In-Law called him to pick her up".

"She's with David? Thank fuck" I reply, still sitting on the floor "how long are yer gonna keep me in here?".
When they first put me in here I threw a tantrum and hit the wall, now my knuckles were bleeding but I was already bruised and bleeding anyway from the fight.

"Well, that depends but either way you will be released tomorrow morning" she replies "can I get you a cup of tea or anything? Maybe get the nurse to clean you up?".

"Yes please, two sugars and that would be lovely, thank you" I smile.

"No problem, please try and relax, I know its prison and its frustrating, but you literally cant go anywhere until we say so and theres no point fighting it" she says "it'll all be better for you in the long run, back in a minute". She closes the hatch, leaving me alone with my thoughts again. I pull my knees up to my chest and rest my head in them.
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"Is this real" I ask Noel "are yer fuckin' kidding me?". He looks down, he was sitting on the floor still in the same spot Liam had him, I still had Liam's collar. "How long?".

"What?" Noel asks.

"How fuckin' long, Noel?" I repeat through gritted teeth.

"Leave it out, Honey, it aint like 'e fuckin' killed someone like" Liam says from my other side.

"Dont fuckin' honey me pal" I turn to Liam "you must know how fuckin' long its been go on".

"Since about a week after Liza got out of hospital" Noel mutters.

"Yer what?" I let go of Liam, who runs off to go hide behind Alan by the door.

I find myself above noel, I wanted to knock his teeth out and shove them so far down his throat he shits them out. "So you were doin' it with my daughter in the house, are yer fuckin' insane? Have yer actually fuckin' lost it yer cunt?".

"Yes, but she never saw" he replies.

"Yes but thats not the fuckin' point, you were high around my baby girl, who wouldnt hurt the world. I mean its bad enough her mums a Bipolar ex-addict but now yer tellin me her dads a coke junkie an' all?" I take a breath and look down at him "I hate you. I actually hate you. You ruined my life an' I dont know why I married yer. I should have been married to Tommy, but he died and instead I got stuck with fuckin' you and look where thats got me. My very successful career broke down, I ended up in fuckin' rehab, I got Bipolar, you had another kid anyway and completely ignored the fact I were stuck in margate and berlin with a child i didnt even fuckin' want.... fuck sake I should have married Liam or Paul Weller, Or anyone but fucking you because ive wasted my fuckin' life. I fucking HATE YOU".

"Leave it, Jess, he aint worth it" Connie grabs my arm to pull me away from him. I was about to hit him. But she touched me so i reacted to that and punched her square on the nose, she responded to that by slapping me back. So i pushed her down and got on top of her and just kept going, I couldnt stop. I hit her and hit her. Even when Eliza walked back in to see her mummy in a frenzy, even when she started screaming and noel had to carry her out somewhere. Even when I stopped and looked down at connie. She wasnt dead, she was just bruised. I convinced myself as we both bled that it looked worse than it was. Then I flipped a couple tables and left.
I walked down the streets of Berlin aimlessly where a police car finally picked me up just as I stopped for a cigarette, I tried to run but it was no use they cuffed me and let me finish my cigarette in the car.
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The nurse finally cut the end of the thread for the stitches in my eyebrow. "There you go Mrs. Gallagher, all done, no more bleeding all over place" she motions to the pool of blood on the floor that had been coming from my eyebrow and my knuckles.

"Thank you" I smile "feels alot better".

"You seem like a nice girl, what possessed you to beat the shit out of her? It seems like you havent got it in you".

"I got pissed off and my bipolar triggered i dont even remember most of it that well. She was trying to stop me. I almost fucked up my husband" I reply with a sigh. "The papers are gonna love this".

The next morning I was awoken bright and early by someone walking into the cell, I payed no attention thinking it was a cleaner.
Then they lightly touched my eyebrow with the stitches. "Thats gonna fuckin' scar badly Honey" he says. I sit up and look at him.

"I know. What have I done, Li? I'm a fuckin' idiot, Wheres Liza?".

"Shes waitin' outside with Noel, they told me to come and get yer" he says. I dont reply I just sit for a second, observing him. "Can I tell yer summat?".

"Go on?" I ask.

"I dont think yer should have come back" he replies "Its my fault for askin' yer to but now look at yer. Banged up in a cell overnight, its front page back in England yer know".

"Liam I came back because I fucking love you, both of you, I cant live without either of you. Its like I cant breathe when yer arent around and its ruining my life, I really do hate Noel, but I love him too. Thats what's fucking me up. Because I fell in love with you too" I reply.

"I know" he sighs "yer cant fuckin' hide it from me... I should have been better too yer".

"What do I do, Liam? What do I actually do? I need help because right now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and no cunt will help m-".
He cuts me off by kissing me. I needed that kiss, it wasnt one I forced on myself so that I could play happy famillies or one that was just done because you could, it was of love. It was of pure love for one another. Pure love that could never happen or be admitted, but in that moment, whilst no one was around to see it, it was. I let a tear run down my cheek when we pulled away, he put his arms around me and his chin on the top of my head so I was leaning on his chest.

"I've always fuckin' loved yer, J, since we were kids. You were just too fuckin' stupid to notice" he replies "but that dont matter now".

"Yes it does because its somethin' that will never be, just like this conversation" I reply and look up at nothing.

Infact there was no Liam Gallagher. There was no love, no Germany or Berlin, no car crash, no Noel, no Oasis tour, no Manchester or Margate, no Elizabeth, no David Bowie, just me. Alone in a white room. Where I belong. Where I should be.
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A/N: ok... so incase you're confused just leave me a comment and I'll explain but I think its pretty clear its #plottwistcity up in here. Dont worry I promise this isnt the end its about to get reallll deep and theres gonna be massive time jump which might be confusing at first.
Just anything you dont get, please dont stay silent.
Anyway Love y'all stay young.
- Paige X