Forever And Ever.

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I woke up to light tapping on the door of the hotel room. I had one arm and one leg over liam like I was trying to keep him captive as he snored away.
"Jess? You awake?" A voice whispers loudly through the door.

I get up and pull my rainbow cardigan on, pulling either side over so it is closed to keep me warm. I tip toe past eliza's cot and to the door. Good thing the dog was trained not to bark at things like this or she would go apeshit and wake the whole building up. My hand reaches for the cool brass latch in the moonlight and I pull the door open just enough to see who it is.

"What do you want? Yer gonna wake everyone up" I grit my teeth and whisper angrily.

"I had to see you, Jess, since what Noel did, I was worried and we didnt exactly have a chance to talk at dinner" he replies.

"We could have spoke at that party, instead of you lot getting me off my nut, Guigs" I reply.

"It just wasnt a good time. Come up to the roof with me? We'll talk up there, no one to listen in".

I followed him up to the roof and we sat on one of those concrete block things that they have up there, looking at new york. "This is where it all started you know" I smile "over there". I point to the railing Liam and I were standing next to when he told me about Siobhan's baby for the first time.

"I'm so sorry" he replies "i should have told you, but Noel threatened to kick me out of the band and you know how much the music means to me. Its all im good at".

"No its not".

"It is".

"What about keeping up with the cricket? You're good at that, I couldnt do it considering how fucking boring it is. You're also good at being my friend and everyone else's" I reply.

"So you're not mad at me?".

"No, its over now. I'm happy where I am and nothing can change the past".

"Isnt it a bit weird, being with Liam even though you were married to noel?".

"How many times do I have to tell yer, we arent together, yeah sometimes we fuck when we're very bored or on a bender just for the hell of it, but we arent together... at least I dont think we are. We dont even share a room back home".

"That dont mean anything, my parents were married yonks and they never shared a room after my sister and I were born".

"I dont remember my parents being together. I'm not even the youngest sibling anymore" I chuckle "I always liked Alan more than my dad anyway, he was so miserable all the time".

"I get that" guigs' reaches over and takes my hand. "If we all stick together it'll be alright, Rkid, I promise".

"I hope so, Guigsy, I really do" I smile.
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I sat in the left wing of the stage and wished I was dead for a second. Liam and Noel were arguing again, Gem looked at me and rolled his eyes. "Some things really never fucking change do they?" He says "go split them up will you?". Liam pounces at Noel just as he says that and they're now rolling about on the floor like actual children, there's feedback going on from the guitar Noel just dropped and its suddenly chaos.

"Fuck sake, why me?" I mutter and then walk out near them "ALRIGHT PACK IT IN".

They both stop for a second and look at me. "Who the fuck are you to tell me what to do?" Noel asks.

"Your worse fucking nightmare, get up and stop fighting or I'll call maggie to sort you both out" I reply.

Noel reaches over and pokes liam in the forehead. "WHAT FUCK DID YER DO THAT FOR YER BASTARD".