so i was watching this show called hill house or something with my family and i was really tired. i was thinking about going to my room so i started stretching. my foot was near my dogs face and he bit my toe and i had to pretend it didn't hurt and that he didn't do it because my family didn't see it. they were comforting him and i just sat there shocked and in pain. i was about to cry but i held it in. i went to my room and my dad came in and he said "you know i wasn't implying that i thought you kicked him. we think he came from a dog farm and he was abused and kicked and that's why he snapped." i had to pretend i was unbothered. then i opened my messaging app to see that my friends and gf had texted me so i was like "okay why?" and it was because she thought i was angry at her and i guess they were talking in a gc i'm not in and that's why they all texted me, knowing what my gf was thinking. and then i saw a text from this girl and i had talked to her before because she told me that my gf was flirting with her a little and stuff(here are the pics)
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and i was like "she wouldn't do that she's not like that" and she was like cool and i told her to tell me if that stuff happened again.
she texted me again today
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it's still her but with a different profile pic. she told everyone she thought i was mad at her and then she says this to some girl on instagram. i told the girl thank you for telling me. i guess this is why people don't date. i don't think i like dating. she's still part of our friend group. i'm not mad i just feel so betrayed and sad. right now i don't know what's happening but i have chills(i can't believe this. she literally just texted me saying i love you) and i'm shaking and i'm not even that cold. i might be sick. maybe it's anxiety. maybe i'm hating and anxiety attack. i just want to tell everyone and no one at the exact same time because i want to get this off of my chest to my friends but i don't want to be victimized and i don't want her to be criminalized. i've never been in a serious relationship and still this hasn't even been very serious. she's my first girlfriend and the first person i've actually liked and i don't want this to happen. i wish i knew what i did wrong. i wish i knew what i could do better.
