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Story Setting: Seventh week of and after medical mission.


WARNING:
R17+ scenes will occur.
Read it or skip it, your choice.

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- Lisa



Another day had passed...
I worked for everyone, did my job as a doctor, took care of many patients and still thinking...



"I haven't taken a good care of what's mine before..."



"That's why I'm all alone. Not Taehyung... not even Yoongi were able to stay."



I stopped from wiping all the soap from my body and let all the drops of water from the shower above to stream down on my body. My lips parted, I breathed in and out slowly, closed my eyes and stood there just like that.



I know to myself that I love neither Taehyung nor Yoongi anymore, but the fact that they weren't both able to stay or to be my man I had given most of myself to them makes me feel so down every time I'll get the thought of.



My pride is hurt, even until now...
But what hurts me more is that I can't find myself worthy enough for anyone now.



I've lost it...
One of the things I've kept before Taehyung's desires, I lost it. Add to that those things that proved how weak and stupid I am in terms of the word love.



T

here's a person who wants to help me...
There's this person who's willing to take care of me... but he's too much, I am complaining of him being more than enough.



It's... scary, to let someone fall in love with you when you know how much of a lesser human you are. It's frightening to think how would a perfect person fall in love with someone sinful.



I'm afraid...
That one day...
He'll finally realized that he deserves better, so it's better not to take anything from him and give anything to him... it's better to avoid it, than to risk what I only have now.



With all these thoughts in mind, I finished bathing, wore my robe and went out of the bathroom. Immediately wore underwear and took the stairs down to the kitchen, made my way to the wine rack cabinet and took the newly bought wine.



"Didn't know I would need you now."
Talking to the bottle of wine, I spoke and chuckled...



I slowly took small steps to the kitchen bar and sat on the tall chair, placed down the bottle of wine and glass down on the marble top of the bar.



With laziness, I used the wine bottle opener and after, poured one glass.



Slowly drink it...
Same thoughts in mind as earlier.
Flashing back all the memories from the past, including how happy I was with Taehyung before...



Followed by how I found out he cheated on me. Then how things drowned on the ocean, how I blamed myself for it, how angry I was for them, how I hated my life... how I almost committed suicide.



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