Just Her (Lisa X Unnamed)

45

- Jimin

My eyes opened, my senses know that it's pretty late in the morning already. My body didn't move even a little, my stomach isn't churning for hunger, everything is not moving.

My eyes are stuck on the curtained window. The curtain was a see through dark green cloth, plain and shaded enough to cover the excess sunlight passing through the transparent glass window.

My mind, for some seconds, didn't process anything until I decided to sat up...

I know I got drunk yesterday, I know that I was wasted and I know each things that I did, that had happened before I had drowsed off on my bed. I know Jongyeon was the one to take me here and she is probably down either at the living room or at the kitchen.

And even though my head is aching, I still stood up. I headed to the bathroom first to take a quick cold shower to refresh my body and change some clothes to at least show some manners to the person who watched me the whole night...

The same person who...
Cheated on me.

After an approximately twenty five minutes, I went out of my room just wearing sweat pants and a plain white shirt. I ran a little as I take the stairs, my eyes scanned the living room a little and found no one so I headed to the kitchen.

"Jongyeon."
       Simple and serious toned, I called.

"Oh, you're awake."
       She tilted her head to look at me, faced me a little while holding a frying pan and a spatula.

"I'm making breakfast, you should join us."
        My brows furrowed and my forehead creased even more as she stated 'us'.

I was about to ask what she meant but even before my lips had parted, a person went out of the kitchen restroom and made my body froze and weaken...

"Jimin..."
      Her voice was weak, but her, calling me, got me weaker.

"W-Why... are you here?"
        I asked with my furrowed brows loosening.

"That's what I wondered too, Jimin."
        Jongyeon, sounding sarcastic, butted in.

"You... called me, you're so drunk, I was wor... ried."

      It's already visible, the tears being produced by her tear ducts.

I gulped a stone, my tongue numbed and my brain just can't think of anything. I know that I called her, but I haven't really thought of her coming. The conversation we had within that call isn't good, I sounded mad, as if I got cheated on and there's no point into everything right now.

"You don't have to come..."
          "You don't even have to feel worried."

I relaxed my body an straightened my back, looked at her straight in the eyes and waited for her to answer. I watched her as she contemplated her words with herself, her lips are evidently quivering, even her hands are shaking.

"I want to hold you...
But I have no right...
And there's no reason for me to."

"I'm sorry."
       Whispered by the woman I want to sympathize.

"For what? For coming?"
        Jongyeon asked.

It was a sarcastic question, sympathy hit me as soon as I heard Jongyeon but there's nothing in me that can ever defend her right now. I can't recognize that emotion hindering me to be on her side, or be worried about her... but it's there, sorry, I have nothing for you.

Lisa's head bowed down, I could see her body trembling even from this distance. Her lips are dry and it felt like anxiety embraced her. My eyes soften but still...

"I guess you should go now, Lisa."
       I suggested... I can tell how my voice was shaky, but it still sounded a bit cold.

Her head rose up and her eyes locked to mine. I heard several glass crashing to the floor, it was like a two pair of hearts collided down with the ground. Her eyes are begging, still. My body even shivered more that time she took a deep breathe and nodded...

"I'm sorry..."
        And my everything weakened when I heard saying sorry before taking steps away from her position.

"Lisa..."

"Guess there's no an actual reason for you to be here then? That's what I can see."
        Jongyeon concluded with a smile making Lisa turn around a little to look at her...

"There's no reason... I know, that's what he's thinking as well and I can see it. I'm just worried, that's all. But since I have no valid reason to feel so, then I'll just keep it to myself. Sorry for the disturbance."
      There's a tiny smile playing on her lips, God knows how much I want to grab her and embrace her tightly but...

"There's no valid reason."

So I let her...
She gave me a last glance before walking to the exit, my body don't even have the enough strength to face the direction where she left, and when the lock of knob clicked, I felt my body almost collapsing.

A shaky sigh went out of my lips, my shoulders dropped and my eyes shut close.

"You love her."
        But not in three seconds, a statement made me quickly open it back.

"Yo do, don't you?"
        The person who has no reason to be here as well questioned with a confident smile plastered on her face.

My brows furrowed, an answer didn't come out...
I straightened my body and stared at her for seconds.

"I know what you're thinking..."
       She stood up from the dinning chair and had our distance closer.

"I have no reason to be here too."
        She chuckled...

"It might not be visible for now, but maybe there's actually a reason for me, coming here?"
       Her back faced me as she roam around the kitchen bar.

"I don't know either, Jimin. It has been years... but I'm here."
       My mind blanked, I can decipher nothing.

"What could it be? Hmm?"

But my senses felt the quake when...

"My ex boyfriend?"

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A:   The story is planned, as what I said, but I have lost track of it so this chapter is shorter than expected. I'll be able to get back to the path after rereading this whole book. Don't worry, I'm back anyway, I'll be updating regularly. Again, sorry for keeping you on hold.