𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 - 𝘱.𝘫𝘮

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i tried my hardest to avoid jimin but its kind of hard when he's in all my classes and sits right next to me. he'd whine, trying to get my attention. my chest hurt and i looked down at my lap. my eyes burning from crying the night before.

jimin's hand came into view and he held my hand. "jae eun please... can't you just talk to me?" he asked. "talk to me about what jimin? how what you said to me on our date was just to butter me up before you went to kiss minah?" i asked weakly.

"what? no no no! everything i said came from the depths of my heart i swear! i would never ever do that to anyone, let alone you!" jimin said. "please baby, will you let me explain at lunch?" he asked.

i sighed. "fine." i said. i hear jimin sigh in relief and he grips my hand a little tighter.

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i sit at the picnic tabled, my arms crossed over my chest. i should've known better than to accept his offer. "you're here. good." i hear jimin breathe out, like he was relieved to see me despite seeing me only five minutes ago.

"are you gonna explain what happened or not? don't play with my heart more just to break it even further." i mumble the last sentence to myself as i play with the long sleeves of my sweatshirt.

"minah kissed me." jimin says and i roll my eyes. "obviously." i say. "do you want to know why?" he asked. i could feel my patience running thin. "if you don't start explaining in the next five seconds, park i will leave." i spat.

"that day you were waiting for me, i really did go to my locker to get my textbook. minah came up to me demanding i break up with you but i told her no." jimin says. "and when i told her no, she kissed me when you walked in."

"don't." i say, feeling my chest tighten. "don't give me false hope jimin." i say. "false hope about what?" he asks. "this!" i say, pointing between the two of us.

"we've been 'dating' or whatever this is for so long and its getting hard to control myself when i actually like you!" i quickly cover my mouth.

jimin's wide eyes are all i see before grab my bag and run away under the bleachers. i sit and bury my head into my knees, hiding my tears. "i don't want to say i was right because even though i am, you're in pain." i hear seokjin say from behind me.

i peek up at him. "i'm pathetic aren't i?" i mumble, sitting up to wipe my eyes. seokjin just stays quiet. "i really messed up." i say, giving a watery chuckle. "you don't have to explain." seokjin says.

i sit and cry until i couldn't. "jae its almost time for class. you should go." seokjin says after a while. i nod and stand up, grabbing my bag. "thank you seokjin." i say and he smiles softly. "anytime jae." he says, and i leave.

i'm a mess.

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